I Don't Have Opinions

2008-12-19T01:17:00.000-08:00

I love my homemade tree. Who knew it was so much fun to make Christmas decorations out of construction paper?

2008-12-02T22:27:00.000-08:00

My mom called me the other day to inform me that I received an AARP application in the mail. Something as silly as that makes me feel young because I'm barely shy of 24, but there are times where I feel incredibly old. This usually occurs when I have had a bad day at work and the realization that I am doing absolutely nothing with my life is so incredibly clear. I've been reading old entries from my sister's blog and mine and most of the time I feel like I'm still the same person, but in a new city. It's so easy to have high expectations and dreams when you are just getting out of college and your parents still pay for everything.

So I'm attempting to do something with my life and I'm going back to school to become a paralegal. I feel good about it and I hope this feeling lasts. I want to use my education that I worked so hard to get for four years and that does NOT involve RETAIL!

2008-08-26T00:43:00.000-07:00

Most amazing weekend of my life.

Saw Radiohead from the 4th row at the Outsidelands Festival.

Listened to Tom Petty from my roof and officially became a cliche when I started singing "Free Fallin'" while slightly intoxicated.

Saw Wilco from the second row. Made eye contact with Jeff Tweedy.

2008-07-08T00:59:00.000-07:00

I need a real job and I need to get away from retail...fast. I am a supervisor at a large retail company that sells you a lot of crap that you more than likely don't need. I can no longer deal with people's neuroses. I can no longer deal with the madness, the anger, the rudeness, the egos, the crying, the sex in public, the loud cell phone talkers, the thieves, the stupidity, and finally, the poop. Oh, the poop.

I have been working for this company for 8 months and I probably have the funniest, most ridiculous and most disgusting stories you will ever hear. I don't know if these experiences have made me a better or worse person, but they sure have taught me a lot.

Here are some tips:

1) The customer is NOT always right. If you are angry about something, more than likely, you are wrong. 90% of the time the customer is wrong.

2) You are not smarter than the person working retail. You especially don't know more about the policies of the company that person works for. Don't act like you do. Ever.

3)Don't talk on your cell phone inside a building in a normal speaking voice. You then become loud and obnoxious.

4) Don't EVER talk on your cell phone when you are purchasing something. I don't care how much you apologize, you are still an asshole.

5) Don't ever assume you are not being watched. Don't have sex or perform sexual acts in public. Most likely, you are on camera.

6) Don't poop on the floor. You must feel some amount of shame when you do this. Why not relieve yourself of that shame and not do it? It'll make the world a better place.

2008-06-10T10:55:00.000-07:00

Since when did Coldplay turn into U2? Their new song "Vida la vida" sounds exactly like U2's "Beautiful Day." Coldplay used to have potential. But now when I see people go into fits of rage about how Coldplay is the worst band in the world, I'm starting to understand. But people will still go to their concerts, clap their hands, sing their lyrics, and think they have become self actualized through the music of an over-hyped, over-produced, over-marketed band. There is nothing like the power of an Apple commercial.

2008-01-11T20:32:00.001-08:00

I just read that Radiohead released the cities they will hit on their tour and San Francisco is on the list. I will see Radiohead. A dream I have wanted to fulfill since I was 9. I will mostly cry and fall to pieces when it happens. I don't believe in much of anything, but I believe in Thom Yorke.

2008-01-04T11:16:00.000-08:00

There is a hurricane going on in San Francisco. The winds have been clocked at 70 mph in my neighborhood. There is an inch of rain falling per hour. Garbage and trees are everywhere. Trucks are being blown over by the wind. The house is shaking. And I just had to move my car because of street sweeping. Awesome.

2007-11-19T19:15:00.000-08:00

When I was in Redding this past weekend for my own little Thanksgiving with my parents I saw a bear! I lived in Redding for 15 years in the middle of nowhere and I never saw a bear. Usually when I get out of my car at night at my parent's house I am scared a mountain lion is going to be around to eat me, but now I have to be afraid of bears! Plus, I had just watched Grizzly Man so I was not feeling very secure when the bear ran in front of my car and up the hill towards my parent's house! I survived, but I will now be parking my car at my parent's front door when I go home.

In other news...at work the other day I got onto the subject of Arrested Development with one of my coworkers which then lead to a conversation about how great Michael Cera is. She then told me about this amazing show on the internet with him called Clark and Michael. It is wonderful. I watched all 10 episodes today. It is sorta kinda an early version of Superbad. It's about two best friends that are trying to sell their Pilot in Hollywood. I highly recommend checking it out if you're in need of a laugh.

2007-11-15T20:16:00.000-08:00

These are my new boots. I am poor, which implies that I have no money, but these are my new boots and I love them.

I have not bought a pair of shoes since this summer which is both scary and impressive for me. One of my most enjoyable moments is when I get to wear my new pair of shoes out on the town and show them off. Shoes may be the one really girly thing that I am into. So since this week is going to be a lonely week with everyone out of town for Thanksgiving except me, I will be dying in anticipation for next week when I can go out on the town with my new boots!

2007-10-30T20:38:00.000-07:00

In the four years that I lived in Southern California I did not feel a single earthquake. I have now been living in San Francisco for 2 and 1/2 months and I have felt my first SF earthquake! It was a 5.6.

My first reaction was, "Oh the Muni is going by." Then the house just kept shaking and it kept getting stronger and I realized it was a earthquake.

So now I get to wait out the aftershocks. Awesome!

2007-10-28T14:20:00.000-07:00

This post is dedicated to my sister because she has been there for me through everything. I am so glad to have her in my life because if she wasn't, I would have lost my sanity a long time ago. She is easily the greatest person I know.

Here are my top 10 favorite Jen moments.

1) My third birthday was at McDonald's in Sacramento. She was 11 and she was determined to read every single card to me. I was 3 and I couldn't really read and I didn't really care, but she just kept reading every card to me.

2) When I was 13 I went to visit her in New York City and she took me to the Nsync concert in Jones Beach. I remember riding the train with her to the concert and being so excited to be in New York, with my sister, going to see Justin TImberlake, decked out in baby blue.

3) When I moved off to college down in Long Beach, I didn't know a single soul and I was pretty scared even though I may not have told anyone that. So after my parents moved me in and left me alone in my dorm room Jen hung out with me for a couple hours to help me get settled.

4) Our first Giants and Dodgers game together. We had drunken bachelors hit on us.

5) Sushi Roku. Eating amazing sushi and the most amazing vanilla ice cream dessert ever.

6) Our weekend routine of going to the Grove, eating at Marmalade and then going to the Beverly Center.

7) Thanksgiving last year. Making dinner in her kitchen and hanging out with the family.

8) Seeing Winona Ryder in Victoria's Secret at the Grove.

9) The night that we went to the Tapas bar and drank way too much wine. And the above picture occurred.

10) My 21st birthday. Because even though I ended up in a drunken stupor, Jen planned that entire weekend for me and that meant so much. It just showed how awesome of a sister she really is.

Love you, sis. Can't wait or you to be up here so we can conquer San Francisco the way we conquered LA.

2007-10-24T10:31:00.000-07:00

I cannot tell you how insulted I am by pink baseball gear. I am insulted as a baseball fan and I am insulted as a woman. The entire point of wearing baseball gear is to represent your team and a big part of that is by sporting the team's colors. For example, Giants and Dodgers games. If a person is wearing black and orange. Giants fan. Blue, Dodgers fan. Pink? Who is the dumbass wearing pink to a Giants and Dodgers game?

I am insulted as a woman because it is just such a stereotype for a woman to like pink. Why fall into that stereotype? Why even perpetuate this horrible stereotype? Do they realize they are helping men justify their reasons for being chauvinistic pigs?

When I see a woman wearing pink I automatically think, "There is some dumb girl who is here with her boyfriend and doesn't know a thing about baseball." The thing is 9 times out of 10 I'm right with that assessment.

I've asked some girls why do they wear these hideous pieces of clothing and they reply with, "It's cute. Black and orange aren't that cute." Because yes, you go to a baseball game to look cute, not enjoy the game right? Once again you have proven that you are a dumbass and are perpetuating the stereotype that women don't like sports. I hate you for this. But then it is almost a good thing for me because when a guy sees that I know more about baseball than he does, I am usually proposed to.

So if you consider yourself a feminist in any way shape or form, enough with the pink shit. You are only hurting your fellow women and we're already paid only 75 cents on the dollar.

2007-09-26T12:47:00.000-07:00

This week has not started as the greatest of all weeks. My cat got eaten by a coyote in front of my mother. Gmail wasn't fun to visit anymore. I have a slight cold and Barry Bonds last game in San Francisco as a Giant is tonight.

So today I decided to take a long walk, which started a debate in my head. Golden Gate Park or the ocean? I then had an epiphany, why not walk to the ocean through Golden Gate Park? And that is what I did.

Every time I go out in this city I love it a little bit more. When I took my walk to the ocean I must have looked like an asshole because I had a big smile on my face because I was so happy to be walking around in San Francisco. There is only one other city in America that gives me that feeling and that is New York City. I don't think I'll be moving there anytime soon so San Francisco is where it's at.

Anyway, when I got to ocean it made me realize how small and insignificant I really am. There is just something about staring at that big blue mass that makes me realize that most of my problems as big as they may seem to me, are actually really small and petty. I'm so glad I decided to take that walk because I no longer have the urge to puke the way I have the past couple days. From now on when I get a little stressed or I have another terrible day like Monday, I am going to take that walk to the ocean and realize that even if it all doesn't work out the way I want to, I'm going to be okay.

2007-09-19T17:24:00.000-07:00

So here is my first blog from San Francisco.

Life is great. San Francisco is amazing. If only I had a job or money grew on trees.

I've had two jobs offers so far, but have turned them down because I don't want to turn into a soliciting, money-hungry, capitalistic asshole. Enough said.

Basically, by day I am laying in bed surfing the internet applying to jobs that don't make me want to blow my brains out when I read about then. By night, I go out on the town and drink beer, a lot of beer.

I love this city. Just walking to the store makes me happy. It's beautiful. The weather is perfect. And people are normal.

My apartment is tiny, but cute. Amazing cherry hardwood floors. View of the city. View of Golden Gate Park. View of the ocean.

Next on the agenda, get a job and take the GRE!

2007-06-20T10:08:00.000-07:00

As excited as I am about moving to San Francisco, being away from my life in Southern California has been really difficult for me. Maybe it's because I'm in Redding where there is nothing to do and no one I know lives here anymore. So my trip to Boston this past week was greatly needed.

For my graduation present my dad took me to Fenway Park to see the Giants and Red Sox. I have dreamed of going to Fenway for most of my life so it was a dream come true.

Here I am at Fenway out in the bleachers. I like the bleachers because we had a great view of the entire park. Fenway isn't that big of a park so even if you're out in centerfield in the bleachers you can still see everything that is going on with the game. It was a great experience to have with my dad. I haven't done had any good father-daughter moments with my dad in years so it was great to spend that moment with him.

The Fenway Park sign ontop of the press booths.

On Saturday my dad flew to Michigan to meet up with my mom to see my brother so I stayed behind to spend time with my friend, Katie. Saturday afternoon we went out to New Hampshire. I had never been to NH and it is gorgeous. I really liked it. So that night we came back to Boston and went out on the town and this is what happened. Drunkeness.

I am not flipping off the camera in this picture. This dumbass stuck his burning cigarette into my finger. Luckily, I was drunk so it numbed the pain a little, but I felt something hurting my finger and I looked down and I had a burning ember on my poor finger. So I now have this ugly wart looking this on it which it what I was trying to show in this picture.

I just liked this picture because it shows the beautiful buildings in Boston and the storm brewing above them.

The Boston Harbor. The weather was awesome when I was there, luckily. It rained for two seconds on Saturday night and the rest of the time it wasn't very hot.

We went and sat at the harbor for a little bit and noticed there were jelly fish in the water! Who knew?!

I liked Boston a lot more this time. My friend had to work on Monday so I was able to go explore the city by myself and I got the feel of the city a lot more this time. Plus, it was summer so a lot more people were out. I give Boston two-thumbs up.

2007-05-24T17:34:00.001-07:00

College is over!

2007-05-20T16:40:00.000-07:00

The moment that I walk out of my last final on Thursday, I am going to block this entire week out. I want everything to be erased from my memory, including all things that involve graduation. Graduation is supposed to be a happy time. A time of celebration. But honestly, I want to pretend like it never happened. 4 papers and 4 tests to go.

2007-05-08T00:55:00.000-07:00

I finished two papers today so I decided to take a break at 1AM and write a post since it is something that I have done very little of this semester. I know that my previous two posts have been overdramatic and on the depressing side, but this has been the most amazing semester. As much as I am beyond over school, I have had the time of my life. I have probably had too much fun and my grades will probably show it when the semester ends in three weeks, but I don't regret a thing.

College, in general, has been the four most amazing years of my life. There have been a few bumps here and there, but 3/4 of college have been nothing but fun. I am genuinely saddened to know that it is all coming to an end. I have met the greatest people. I have had incredible professors that have changed my life more than they will ever know. I don't know a school that could have fit me better for undergrad than CSULB. When I moved away after high school I didn't have any saddness. But when I move away in a few weeks, I am going to be devastated because I'm going to be leaving my entire life behind me.

I am going to literally be starting my life over again when I move. New city. New friends. First real job. A year later, new school. It is a terrifying feeling, but I'm trying to turn those feelings into excitement and I think it's beginning to work.

So starting August 1st, watch out San Francisco because I'm coming to conquer you!

And hey! if I end up living on the streets, at least there will be plenty of homeless people for me to make friends with!

2007-05-07T16:33:00.000-07:00

Tues. May 8th- Response paper due

Wed May 9th- 450 paper due

Thurs May 10th- 338i research paper due
338i presentation
395i presentation

Tues May 15th- Response Paper due

Wed May 16th- 338 research paper due

Thurs May 17th- Biology assignment due

Tues May 22nd- GEOG140 final
Bio200 final

Wed May 23rd- 450 final
338 final due

Thurs May 24th- 338i paper due
338i final
395 paper due

Friday May 25th- Die

2007-03-20T17:37:00.000-07:00

Life when you are about to graduate college is not very fun. No, that is not the way to describe it. It is really scary and when I get scared, I rebel. I do not go to most of my classes. I put off writing papers when I have four due in three days and I certainly do not feel guilty about doing it. Everyone tells me that I just have a bad case of Senioritis, but I just don't think that is it. I don't want to be done with school. I want to keep going. I love the Political Science department more than anything.

I am two months away from graduation and I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I have no job lined up. I have no idea where I am going to be living. I am two months away from everything that I am familiar with being taken away and I am not a person that enjoys change. I actual despise it. It runs in the family. For twenty years my dad ate a roll and a Pepsi for breakast (I wonder where my sister gets her Coke-in-the-morning habit). Now I don't want to be the kind of person that eats a roll and a Pepsi for breakfast every morning, but I am also not the kind of person that enjoys spontaneity in every moment of my life. I sometimes enjoy the predictable.

So here I am sitting around with no idea what my life is going to be like in two months. This thought excites most people. Oh! The Possibilities. But lately, I have just wanted to curl up in the fetal position and cry. Oh! The possibilities in my mind means, "Oh, the possibilities for failure." And FAILURE is my number one fear so for now I am going to go eat my roll and Pepsi and curl up on the couch and cry.

2007-01-25T16:42:00.000-08:00

The last couple months I have been kind of sick of men. Actually, I should say sickened by men. I have been convinced that women are doomed because men are the most repulsive creatures on this planet. So for awhile now Jim from "The Office" has been my dream boy because he's a great guy, treats women with respect, likes good music, dresses well, is tall, and is imaginary. PERFECT! But now, Jim is starting to prove that seriously ALL men are dogs. I am Team Pam, but Jim is being so unfair to Karen and is acting like an asshole, or typical male. Yes, I know these characters of fictional, but my theory is that if my imaginary perfect man isn't perfect then really, women are doomed. Things need to turn around with Jim or I really may as well just give up now. My birthday is next weekend so next Thursday better have a new episode so I can start out my 22nd year with a happy thought about men.

2007-01-12T13:42:00.000-08:00

So I'm back from Boston and New York which means this post will be very long and contain lots of photos. Once Jenny sends me her pictures there will be probably another post with pictures at a later date.

Anyway, Boston and New York were amazing and I can't believe I'm back in Southern California where I have to drive a car and it is always sunny. This was definitely one of the best vacations I've had.

Here are the ladies I went with. Jenny is on the left and Katie is on the right. This was in our hotel room when we were in New York City.
Obviously, this is Times Square. We got a hotel in Times Square for $100. Great deal. Usually when I'm in New York I don't do all the touristy stuff like Times Square, but for $100, why not?
Here is a random picture of the city. I'm sure you heard about the weird smell that was in Manhattan and they thought it was a terrorist attack at first. Well, we were there that day. We had gone out the night before and so we were a little tired and hung over and the entire morning when we were trying to sleep we kept hearing sirens going off. We thought there was a terrorist attack and then we found out that it was just some weird smell coming from Jersey. Argh.
This is Little Italy. Good eating. MMM
What is better than watching Anderson Cooper on TV? A GIANT photo of him in Times Square!

We also went to Ground Zero. The site itself is literally a massive hole in the ground, but the memorial with the pictures is what is really haunting. There were a couple pictures that I had to not look at because they were so upsetting. I am definitely glad I went. Even though 9/11 was a horrific event for America, being at that site made me realize how disconnected I was from the situation since I was all the way in California. It was an eye opening experience to be standing in front of it.
Hung over ladies in Manhattan freezing to death. I don't know what it is about Katie and me, but we are a drinking duo. When Katie used to live in Long Beach she was my drinking buddy and whenever we go out together we ALWAYS make friends with the bartender and get free alcohol for the night. So we went to an Irish pub in NYC and we made friends with the bartender and got free alcohol. Katie also kissed him because he was cute and Irish. Later that week I was kissed by another Irish boy. They are strange on the East Coast.
After two days in New York City we went back to Boston. Here is the state house where Katie will be working next semester.
We did some ice skating while we were in Boston. I had NEVER ice skated before in my entire life. The first 10 minutes I was holding onto the side and slowly, but surely making my way around the rink, but after a few times around I started to kick some ass and I was skating on my own. I even attempted to go backwards, but I didn't do so well. I did not fall once though. I was proud of myself. Ice skating is fun, but it definitely works the legs. We were all feeling it the next day.
We went to the JFK museum. That was really neat and this part of it was amazing. See the clouds reflected in the windows?
This is a picture of Boston from the JFK museum.
A random building near BU.
Random street in BostonLast, but certainly not least, Fenway Park! My favorite thing. I cannot wait for baseball season to start. The Giants now have the hottest man in baseball as their number one pitcher and good things are bound to come. I can't wait to go to a game at Fenway this summer!!

So that was my trip to the East Coast. It was amazing and I miss it. It may have been cold, but I loved it. I can't wait to go back!

2007-01-04T19:04:00.000-08:00

Happy new year!

I'm back in Southern California after being in Redding for way too long of a time, but I'm flying to Boston on Saturday morning! Then on Sunday I'm going to New York. I can't wait! I'll be back on the night of the 11th and I will know if I will be moving to San Francisco or Boston in June. I'll have lots of pictures. So let's just hope I don't pass out on the streets one night and freeze to death! See you when I get back!

2006-12-27T11:58:00.000-08:00

What is it about coming home and everyone reunites for the first time in months and sometimes years that forces everyone to think that if they ever slightly had a crush on someone it gives them justification to try and hook up with that person? Every time I come home this is all I see. Random people from high school hooking up. I have been guilty of this too, but this year it seems like the random high school hook up trend is in full swing. Maybe it's the knowing that you're not going to see this person for months after it happens. Maybe it's the fact that when you come home it is depressing to realize how old we all are now. Maybe it's nostalgia. I have no clue, but it sure does provide entertainment.

2006-12-19T21:36:00.000-08:00

Finals are over and that picture explains how I feel about that. I am proud of myself. I had a cold during finals week and I think I slept maybe 5 hours, but I did not cry once. Well...I almost cried when the boy gave me a hug, but I held them back. I believe this may be the first time I didn't cry during a finals week. I don't handle stress well.

Today after I finished my last final(totally bombed it), I walked outside and I literally said out loud, "Holy shit. I actually made it through this semester." Honestly, this was the hardest semester of all my college years. At one point I literally thought I was going to die from lack of sleep. I may have had 8 breakdowns at the beginning of the semester because Moot Court was so insane, but I made it. Next semester I have 19 units to face, but that doesn't even intimidate me because I know if I made it through this semester and I made it through Moot Court, I can make it through just about anything.

I am going home to the cold tomorrow and it is going to be great. Home-cooked meals. Drinking with my dad. Going to white-trash bars. Fireplaces. 3 cats and a dog. The parents. My sister. And eventually my brother. I love the holidays.

Happy Holidays everyone!

2006-12-11T01:30:00.000-08:00

It is 1:30AM and I just finished my nine page paper on why Epperson v. Arkansas created social change. My brain hurts.

I have school tomorrow from 9:30AM to 9:15PM.

Tomorrow is my last day of Moot Court for the rest of my life. Thank the lord!

I have to write a 6-8 page paper on two movies that is due Wednesday and I have yet to see either of them.

I am having serious issues with the boy.

I bought an awesome ring at Target.

My jacket (see below) my mother informed me that I am not allowed to wear it because she wants me to drive it 9 hours home and then let her wrap it. She is crazy, but I love her anyway.

Why am I writing random thoughts? Because that is all my brain can manage after writing 9 pages on Epperson v. Arkansas. Damn you Law and Social Change.

I have never been so happy to see the end of a semester in my life.

6 more months and I'm moving to Boston. Scary. I hope I'm not a piece of shit and end up not doing it.

4 weeks and I will be in Boston!

It is December 11th and I have yet to buy ONE Christmas present. Who is the worst human being in the world? ME!

Who will be Christmas shopping on December 24th? ME! KARMA.

It is supposed to snow in Redding next Tuesday. I am jealous. Jealous isn't the word. I am homesick. I have not been home in 5 months and it is going to be 75 degrees here this week. Give me rain and cold weather NOW!

I was not homesick until this weekend when the boy began to be stupid... again and then the homework started to pile up, finals started approaching quickly and now I just want it to all be over. I want cold weather, a Christmas tree, a fat cat named Bobo, a black dog named Katie, and my poohead son(cat) Frodo, and my mom's cooking...NOW.

2006-12-10T01:31:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas to me.

2006-12-05T23:56:00.000-08:00

I just got back from the Death Cab for Cutie concert and it was AMAZING. AMAZING. AMAZING. Ben Gibbard is a fucking god. I was never attracted to the man before, but after seeing the way he moves and how amazing he is live and that he is actually tall, I don't know. I kind of want him.

Jenny Lewis (the lead singer of Rilo Kiley) opened for Death Cab. Eh. Her voice was incredible. I could listen to her sing all night, but other than that...Eh. I have never seen a band have so little crowd interaction in all the shows I've been to. It was shocking. I think she said "What's up?" and "Thank you." the entire time. Crazy.

I think Death Cab just passed Spoon and The Strokes as my favorite shows, but I'm not sure. Julian Casablancas will forever hold a place in my heart and Spoon is just too cool for words. But Death Cab. Death Cab how I love the stomping Ben Gibbard.

2006-11-26T11:14:00.000-08:00

My Moot Court competition is finally here. Friday and Saturday I will compete. Even though I am dreading it, I am excited because it means that the last month of my semester will be so much easier. It also means that I can finally start blogging again. Then next semester will start and I won't have time again because I am taking 19 units. Why am I subjecting myself to the torture of 19 units? Because I am graduating next semester!! Yay! So wish me luck! I will definitely be needing it.

2006-10-12T00:08:00.000-07:00

In Southern California it is sunny every day of the year. Well, not every day, but 360 days out of the year it is sunny and because of this sandals and flip flops are year round footwear. As you know by now shoes are a great obsession of mine and I will judge you soley on the shoes you are wearing and because of this I have noticed that the most horrible style of footwear for men has been taking over my campus. Mandals. Dear God people. You have no idea how much this pains me. Not only are boys wearing mandals to the max these days, they are wearing them with socks! THE HORROR!!! MY GOD THE HORROR!!! Crocs are bad enough, but what I'm talking about are full-on leather mandals. What man actually buys them? What man actually thinks it is ever okay to wear sandals with socks???? I have decided that when I run for President I am going to outlaw mandals and save everyone's eyes from such horror. Please boys, Just Say No to Mandals!!

2006-09-25T02:49:00.000-07:00

Yes, it is 2:45AM on a Sunday night, or should I say Monday morning, and I have just now finished my 5 case briefs for Moot Court. I have class at 9:30 this morning which means I have to be up in 4 hours and I am in no way even close to being ready for bed. Not to mention, I have class tomorrow from 9:30AM to 9:15PM. Do I want to cry? Maybe a little.
I absolutely in no way can skip any of my classes tomorrow which is even a more painful thought and what is even more painful is to think of what next week is going to be like. 5 more case briefs, a paper, and a test.
The word briefed should not be used in reference to the task of case briefing. It is way too deceiving and evil and misleading. When you have a 30 page case in 8 pt font from 1890 is there really an easy way to summarize it and apply it to the competition case? The answer is NO!
Now I am going to go lay in my piles of papers and try to get some work done. The only thing that keeps me happy is this:

Thanks Gwen! It is honestly my favorite thing in the entire world right now!! And on that note I will say this..."That's what she said...or he said...."

2006-09-15T13:43:00.000-07:00

How drunk are we?

I know I've been gone forever, but I have had good reason. School has started and my life has become mania once again. So I thought I would do a quick update of what's going on in the life of Penny over the past month.

I'm taking 15 units and all of them are upper division which means this semester = death.

It's the third week of school and I have already broken down to my mother and cried to her about how I can't work this semester because I am already dying.

Moot Court was the worst decision of my life. I have to know 22 cases backwards and forwards and then some how accomplish the feat of reading for my other classes.

I have to debate in front of judges this semester. Dear God.

I purchased Season 2 of The Office and it is my favorite thing in the entire world. I cannot wait for Thursday! Season Premiere. We are so close to it that even my TiVo is telling me it is going to be recorded.

My brother came down the other weekend. It was fun. Wine is good, but summer colds are never fun.

So that's my nice little summary.

Oh and there's this boy and he makes me smile. :)

2006-08-24T18:36:00.000-07:00

Today I purchased my ticket to Boston in January. It is such a good feeling to know for sure that I will be there! Even though I will be freezing my ass off, at least I will be freezing my ass off in Boston. And even though I don't get to go to a game at Fenway, at least I can stand outside of it and cry and it won't have to be in front of 50,000 strangers. Since it will be so cold my tears will probably freeze so I will take one of them and put it in a jar and label it "A Tear for Fenway" and it will forever define my first trip to Boston. Okay, maybe that is crazy, but still...I CAN'T WAIT!! I better start brushing up on my Boston vocabulary and start saying things like "wicked" and "NomAH!"

2006-08-23T23:53:00.000-07:00

Good bye life. Hello school books.

For the past two weeks I thought school started on Wednesday, but apparently it starts on Monday. MONDAY!!! Now, let's see here...Thursday I am getting ready for my trip back down south. Friday I am driving to Monterey and going out with Joanna. Saturday I am driving to Santa Barbara and hanging out with Shane. SUNDAY I am driving home and then STUDYING!!! How the hell is school starting again? I don't think you understand how terrified of this semester I am. Not only will it be my LAST fall semester at CSULB, it will be one of the hardest semesters of my life.

History 346I: European Cinema- Communist and Facist Resist
History 477A: AMerican Cultural History
Political Science 412: Law and Social Change
Political Science 417: Legal Practices: Moot Court
Political Science 430: Fundamental Public Administration

Moot Court is going to eat me alive. No lie. I have to dress in a suit. I have to present a case and debate in front of judges. I have to compete in tournaments! I don't think I've ever been this scared of a semester before. I remember being nervous last semester, but nothing compares to the anxiety I am already feeling for this one. I am going to need a miracle to help get me through this.

2006-08-07T14:01:00.000-07:00

Hello. My name is Penny and I'm a shopaholic. I'm addicted to shoes. It all started when I was about 16 and the town I was living in got a Macys. That was when my first experience with Steve Madden occured. It made me so happy. I just knew I would have to try it again and that's when it all started going down hill. Now I can't even go into a mall with hitting up the Steve Madden store. It's a horrible nasty habit.

On Friday I went shopping with some friends and I ended up getting two more pairs of shoes and a Michael Kors shirt. I have serious problems.

2006-07-31T22:19:00.000-07:00

Dear Brian Sabean,
Do yourself and the city of San Francisco a favor and fire yourself. Thank you.

Sincerely,
Penny

This is the letter I've been contemplating sending Brian Sabean, the GM for the San Francisco Giants. Last season when he was talking about trading JT Snow I wrote him a much longer version to express my hatred for him, but the 8 game losing streak by the Giants has left me with no energy to do so.

This is worse than watching a train wreck. I can't even explain the pain and disappointment. The Giants are my abusive boyfriend that I can't get rid of. Whenever I swear them off forever they come back and show signs of change. They remind you of why you fell in love with them in the first place. Then, right when you think they really have turned things around they smack you down again. Every Giants fan knows what I am talking about. We are all masochists.

I haven't been this down in the dumps about the Giants since the day after we lost the World Series. I feel like I'm going to puke and I'm too sad to cry. It is a constant throbbing pain and sadness that I cannot explain. I just feel dead inside. All of this because of a baseball team. And I know in the morning I will wake up with a hope that this will be the day that the Giants turn it all around. Why? Because that is what Giants fans do.

P.S. I will be making Giants T-shirts that say "Disgruntled Giants fan" on the front and "Fire Brian Sabean" on the back. Let me know if you want one.

2006-07-16T23:09:00.000-07:00

Life sucks right now, but I have Netflix and alcohol and Thom Yorke. So I guess it can't be that bad right now. But honestly...Thom Yorke is a fucking god. Is it bad that I want to quit my job after 4 days? The lady at work may have given me an eating disorder. Never work retail....ever!

Please excuse me but I got to ask
Are you only being nice
Because you want something
My fairy tale arrow pierces
Be careful how you respond
'Cause you'd not end up in this song
I never gave you an encouragement
And it's doing me in
Doing me in
Doing me in
Doing me in

The more you try to erase me
The more, the more
The more that I appear
Oh the more, the more
The more you try the eraser
The more, the more
The more that you appear

You know the answer so why do you ask
I am only being nice
Because I want someone, something
You're like a kitten with a ball of yarn
And it's doing me in
Doing me in
Doing me in
Doing me in

The more you try to erase me
The more, the more
The more that I appear
Oh the more, the more
The more I try to erase you
The more, the more
The more that you appear
No, you're wrong, you're wrong
You're wrong, you're wrong
You're wrong, you're wrong

Thom Yorke

2006-07-09T21:19:00.000-07:00

Top 10 Hottest Guy Movie Characters

1. George Clooney as Jack Foley in Out of Sight
George Clooney is hot in any movie, but this is him at his hottest. I think it has to do with the feel of the film and the chemistry between him and Jennifer Lopez. I'm not a big fan of JLO in other things, but in this movie she rocks. Out of Sight is easily the sexiest movie I've ever seen.

2. Paul Newman as Brick Pollitt in Cat on a Hot Tin Roof
Elizabeth Taylor and Paul Newman, two beautiful people. Sure, Paul is kind of an ass in this movie, but that just makes him hotter. That and the fact that he is in pajamas for 2/3 of the movie.

3. Brad Pitt as Tyler Durden in Fight Club
As of now I am so disgusted by Brad Pitt that I don't find him attractive at all, but since this is pre-Angelina I excuse this choice. Not only is Brad Pitt amazing in this movie, but his style and his body, my God his body!!, make him irresistable.

4. James Dean as Jim Stark in Rebel Without a Cause
He's a rebel, nothing gets much hotter than that.

5. Clice Owen as Larry in Closer
I had the hardest time deciding if Clive was hotter in Closer or in Sin City. I went with Closer because his hair was better and he is British in it. He's kind of an evil asshole and a perv, but he's hot nonetheless. That accent will get me any day. He's such a stud. All man.

6. Guy Pearce as Leonard in Memento
For years I thought Brad Pitt had the best jawline, until I saw Memento and was introduced to Guy Pearce. He was in LA Confidential before Memento, but he was nerdy and wasn't all tatted up the way he is in Memento. There are only two movies that have made me yell at the end of a movie the way I did at the end of Memento and those are The Usual Suspects and Requiem for a Dream.

7. Jake Gyllenhaal as Anthony Swofford in Jarhead
The plot to Jarhead was just plain stupid, but Jake was practically naked throughout the whole movie so I'm all for it. Jake's butt is always good with me.

8. Johnny Depp as Jack Sparrow in Pirates of the Caribbean
I figured out that Johnny Depp is one of the hottest men on the planet when I saw Pirates. I don't know why I am so attracted to Johnny Depp is this movie because he is so clearly disgusting, but somehow I am and that is why Johnny Depp is one of the hottest men on the planet.

9. Christian Bale as Bruce Wayne in Batman Begins
Buffed up Christian Bale. Enough said.

10. Eric Bana as Hector in Troy
I hated Troy with a passion, but my God Eric Bana is hot and he's in a skirt. I found Munich incredibly boring, but I kept watching in hopes of Eric Bana having his shirt off some more.

2006-07-06T11:19:00.000-07:00

Last night my sister sent some more Vegas pictures and well, I have some bad news for my brother. His wife cheated on him...with me!

What is this picture? It looks like Jen and I are about to kiss. This is the most absurd picture. Why does it look like my hair is blowing in the wind? Jen looks like she is about to fall asleep and Nicole is in the background cheering us on. I thought I remembered everything that went on in Vegas, but apparently not. Sorry, Jefe. I didn't mean to. I hope you'll forgive me.

2006-06-28T14:07:00.000-07:00

Superman Returns opened today and well, I hate Superman. He is the lamest superhero ever. He's an alien. No shit he can beat everyone up. He can't die unless someone has Kryptonite. LAME.

I'm all about Batman and Spiderman. Although I love Batman a little bit more than Spiderman. Spidey holds a very dear place in my heart. So today I was watching movie trailers and I saw that the Spiderman 3 trailer had been released! I about died. Oh.My.God. I cannot wait for this movie. VENOM! Venom is pure evil, but amazing. I cannot believe I have to wait a year for this movie. I think I'm going to watch the trailer everyday until the movie comes out.

I don't know what it is about the Spiderman movies, but they capture the essence of Spiderman perfectly. I love the Tim Burton Batman movies and Batman Begins with Cristian Bale, but those are so different from the feel of the cartoon so my attachment to the Spiderman movies is much greater. So if anyone comes across a time machine in the near future, let me know because I don't know if I can wait until Mya 2007 to see this movie!

2006-06-20T16:58:00.000-07:00

Right now I have a cold and no money. So since I have a cold and no money I decided it would be a good idea to go shopping. I found the cutest shoes! So excited! My favorite flip flops broke last week and I have been really down in the dumps about them, but now I'm over them. These shoes are probably the hardest things to put on, but who cares because they are red and tall and cute!

Oh, and P.S. Look who the genius is! What!

2006-06-14T14:18:00.000-07:00

Yes, that is President Bush picking his nose. I know, not surprising, but he was caught on national television! He is the President of the United States of America, although I believe he was the governor at this point, but still! He is a political figure! He should know that the camera is constantly on celebrities and political figures at baseball games or any sporting event!

I was watching Bill Maher on On-Demand the other day and Sir Ian McKellen was on and he was talking about how more people should walk, not only for environmental purposes, but for people purposes too. He says that whenever we're in our cars it is like we go into our own little world and no one else exists. I agree with him because of this whole nose-picking phenomenon.

I have had to make 6 trips, to and from, LAX over the past week and the traffic by LAX is some of the worst traffic you will ever encounter. People do amazing things in traffic. I don't know if it is that they don't realize that people get bored and look into other people's cars in traffic or if they simply just don't care. I saw a woman pick her nose and EAT IT! I saw a lady with her windows down blasting the Moulin Rouge Soundtrack and singing off-key at the top of her lungs. I saw another man with his finger so far up his nose, I swear to God he could have touched his eyeballs. I guess whatever keeps you entertained, right?

I have another four trips there and back from LAX to look forward to next week so I'm anxious to see what other disgusting human habits I will see. I am sure there will be plenty of nose picking to go around and I can't wait!

2006-06-11T19:42:00.000-07:00

I don't understand why Americans aren't into soccer, but I especially don't understand why American WOMEN aren't into soccer! Not only is it a great sport, but the men! My GOD THE MEN!

David Beckham-England

Cristiano Ronaldo-Portugal

I always get really into the World Cup and I don't know why because the United States never goes anywhere. It's second to the World Series as the the greatest sporting event, in my opinion. Maybe it's because I went to the Women's World Cup when they won the whole thing. Or maybe it's because the men are so unbelievably HOT and they take their shirts off at the end. GUARANTEED! I'm telling you, ladies, this is the sport to watch. Hot men and guaranteed their shirts are off at the end. What other sport does this?

The hottest team I've seen so far is Portugal, but there are still many more to come. I can't wait! So tomorrow I will be waking up at 6AM, just like I have the 3 previous mornings, to watch a bunch of hot men run around and take their shirts off. Who's going to join me?

P.S. Go see "An Inconvenient Truth." I must have said, "Holy shit" about nine times in it!

2006-05-21T23:14:00.000-07:00

Finals are over. A lot of alcohol has been consumed. My brother is getting married in a week. And I am officially old. I've decided to become a nun. Summer school starts in a week and I need a job. A lot has changed over the past two weeks. Not really, but I have to tell myself this so I think my life is actually exciting. What is exciting? I'll tell you what is exciting! VEGAS! Bridefest 2k6 has come and gone, but it was a good weekend where obscene amounts of money were spent!

As soon as Jen and Nicole arrived in Vegas, we wasted no time in embarrassing the bride. My sister and I made a shirt that read "Bridfest 2k6" across the front. Nicole also made goodie bags, but what was included is way too perverted to write on here.

We decided to go walk the strip on the first night. I decided it would be lame and cliche to take a picture at the Venetian since that is where Jen and my brother met.

Nicole got us awesome rings that lit up red. We decided to use them in case we lost each other and we would just have to stick our rings up in the air to locate each other. Bridefest 2k6!

My big splurge was a pair of Marc Jacobs sunglasses. I had a panic attack for about three hours afterwards, but I love them dearly. They look black in the picture, but they're actually a dark green. Oh, Marc.

Torturing Jen was always fun. We made her take a picture with one of the studs at Caesar's Palace. She may deny it now, but she enjoyed it.

We surprised Jen by taking her to Bobby Flay's restaurant. She is obsessed with Bobby and this was the look on her face when she figured out where we were going. The food was AMAZING. I haven't eaten that well since Italy.

After Vegas I had to buckle down and study for finals. Finals didn't go so well so I deicded to numb the pain by drinking heavily and this is what happened...

I know nuns don't drink alcohol, but I've decided to bend the rules a little bit. There was a Flying Nun so why can't there be a drinking nun? Exactly.

2006-05-06T14:41:00.000-07:00

One picture can sum up my entire cinco de mayo.

Two words can sum up my entire seis de mayo.

Hung. Over.

2006-05-05T16:24:00.000-07:00

Today is Cinco de Mayo and what am I doing? Writing a research paper. Most college students are making themselves a margarita and laying out at the beach. Although I am going out tonight, I am still jealous of all those people laying out at the beach right now. I am stuck in my apartment until what looks like the end of time. I have never been so stressed out in my entire life.

I thought this semester would be different because I haven't procrastinated the way I have every other semester. I've actually tried to keep up on the reading, I really have! Still, May 16th is two weeks away and I am going out of my mind. I have to read two books, which amounts to around 800 pages. I have to write 7 pages which amounts to about 1 billion pages and I have 4 finals to study for. Oh, oh! Not to mention, I have to go to Vegas the weekend before finals for a bachelorette party! Don't get me wrong, Vegas is going to be a blast and I am excited, but the thought of excessive drinking the weekend before finals is making me kind of nervous.

I found out a couple weeks ago that I am going to graduate on time and I have been so excited. I started looking into grad schools and everything, but I think these past couple weeks have made me recosider my options. I started to think maybe the working world wouldn't be so bad. No more finals. No more cramming. Then I thought about it some more and I realized that my college years have been the best years of my life and why do I want those to end so I can go work for some asshole that doesn't care about me? I can stay in school and meet cute coffee boys, drink, procrastinate, and at the end of the semester I can get so stressed out over finals I want to cry. It will be great. I've decided I'm going to grad school whether I get the support I want or not. So even though right now I feel like I'm going crazy trying to get everything done, I'm excited. Even though finals feel like they are going to be the end of me, I know as soon as I'm done with my last final I'll be happy I did it.

On that note, I am going to crawl back into my cave and work on some more papers. I will possibly return after I get back from Vegas otherwise May 18th will be the date!

2006-04-26T18:38:00.000-07:00

Finally something exciting has happened to me. Rachel and I have been trying to get tickets to the Ellen show for months now and we had tickets last week, but the show ended up being cancelled so today had to be the day that we were finally going to see her. Today was a rollercoaster of emotions and I will tell you about it and show you the pictures that we took to document our fabulous day.

We woke up bright and early and headed off to see our favorite daytime talk show host. We wanted to make sure to get there early so we were sure not to be put in the rif raff room. We got there without a hitch and had no problem finding parking.

We were ready to go and dance with Ellen! Here we are about to go get our place in line. We thought it would be no problem since we got there TWO HOURS prior to when the line is supposed to even START. But no...we walk up to check in and the girls tells us that the audience is only 156 people and we are numbers 164 and 165. 8 people too late! She also said that sometimes VIPs don't show up so there is a 50/50 chance of us still being able to get into the audience.

As you can see we were so upset and apparently, I look 12 when I'm upset. Had we arrived 20 minutes earlier we probably would have gotten in. We had some time to waste so we decided to go to lunch. We couldn't believe our hopes had been crushed like that.

After lunch we headed back to stand around some more. They gave us a survey to fill out, which confused us all, but we did it anyway. Here's an example of the survey and my responses:
Will you be watching the Daytime Emmy's on Friday?
Tivo, baby

Besides Ellen, who will you be rooting for?
I hope that Jon Stewart will receive the 1st daytime Emmy for a night time show.

Who is your favorite daytime soap opera star?
That guy on that show.

I believe that sarcasm solves all problems.

We met two ladies that were VIP and one of them kept reassuring us that we would get in because she was lucky. I was also able to get Rachel hooked up because she is OBSESSED with Justin Timberlake. Since one of the ladies had the hook up I sarcastically said, "You should get Rachel's number and hook her up with tickets when Justin Timberlake is on the show." The lady agreed and will now be trying to get Rachel the hook up. AWESOME. Things were starting to go our way.

So then it's 5 minutes before the show and we're sitting in the rif raff room and the guy starts calling out numbers, but he tells us that this doesn't necessarily mean we're getting in. Next thing we know we're walking up the stairs and there is the stage. He tells us to go talk to this girl and the girl leads us down the show stairs and puts us in the FRONT ROW! We had better seats then the VIP people we met! It was insane. Rachel and I freaked out. Wentworth Miller(total babe)was on and the musical guest was Daniel Powter. It was funny that he was the musical guest because just at lunch I was talking about how that song is almost as annoying as that James Blunt song, "Beautiful." That song seriously makes me want to kill myself.

ANYWAY! The best part was! During the performance Ellen walked right in front of Rachel and me and brushed us! It was hilarious because as soon as it happened mine and Rachel's eyes bulged out of our heads and we looked at each other and then we looked at the security guard since he was watching us and he smirked at us. So YEAH! ELLEN DEGENERES TOUCHED ME! I also made eye contact with her. MY GOD!

Some other nice little tidbits: Tony, her DJ, is a babe. The guy that warms the crowd up before the show = babe. The stage is incredibly tiny even though it looks huge on TV. I got the Daniel Powter CD for free and I don't want it so if anyone likes the dude, send me your address and I'll send it to you for FREE.

This is similar to the look on our faces when Ellen walked by us.

It turned out to be an amazing day. Ellen is awesome. If you would like to see Rachel and me poorly dance on national television IN THE FRONT ROW!, we will be on tomorrow. We are next to the girl in the green shirt that is on quite a bit. FUN FUN FUN! Hopefully next time we'll be seeing JT!

2006-04-20T16:07:00.000-07:00

L.A. traffic has been killing me lately. Today I was sitting in traffic at one o'clock in the afternoon; two hours prior to when rush hour is even supposed to START to begin.It has been making me so angry that I have actually been having dreams about it. Last night I had this horrible dream that I was one of the drivers that I hate more than anything in the world. I drove with two feet so I kept slamming on the breaks and then accelerating as hard I could and I refused to get out of the left lane even though I was aware of the fact that I was a horrible driver. During my dream I found the real me screaming at the horrible driver me because one of my biggest fears is to be a horrible driver that causes traffic and ruins the fast moving highways for everyone!

My number one reason for gun control is because of people like me. I have the worst road rage and if I was handed a gun I am sure on some days I would mow down the entire left lane. Everytime I drive home up the 5 I find myself contemplating buying a gun and taking out every single last left lane driver. I would elminate the vast majority of traffic. Just think of how much stress would be aleviated by the reduction of left lane drivers. I am convinced that left lane drivers are horrible inconsiderate people that only think of themselves. It is true. So if you are a left lane driver, I hate you and I basically think you are the devil and the cause of all stress.

2006-04-01T12:00:00.000-08:00

Last night was a very interesting night to say the least. I went out with some friends to our favorite bar in Long Beach. It's an Irish Pub so it is an eclectic mix of people that go there. Recently I talked about how I only attract 55 year old men with missing teeth, well, I also attract dumbasses and I ended up getting 3 guys kicked out of a bar. All of us knew it was going to be an interesting night because of the first set of guys that came up to talk to us.

We're all standing around talking when all of a sudden
Random Guy: You guys are fucking hot!!
We all stop talking and look at this guy
RG: I mean Top Model Hot! I saw you guys and I was like whoa, why are all the Top Models here?
He then goes on to describe what each of us are, but I was pretty drunk so I only remember the first two.
RG: I mean you have the hot Latina. (Then he looks at me) The modest white girl.

I was called a modest white girl. What is this?

I don't remember much after this, but need I say the guy was a dumbass.

Then this Irish guy comes over and starts talking to us. I didn't mind him though beause he said American girls don't have good taste in shoes, but mine were "kick ass." Compliment me on my shoes and you will forever be in my good book.

The drama then began. I'm sitting at this table talking to my friends when all of a sudden I look up and there is this drunk dumbass at the bar taking pictures of me. He looks right at me and smiles drunkenly and I gave him the dirtiest look ever and shook my head to tell him that's not cool. He then procedes to take picture after picture after picture and I start to get pissed so I start to flip him off and he STILL will not stop. Finally, his friend makes him stop and his friend comes over and says, "I'm sorry about my friend he just finished med school." (Trust me this kid did NOT got to med school!) So I said, "And that's an excuse, why? Tell your friend if he keeps taking pictures of me I'm going to kick him in the balls." So then guy walks out and the motherfucker takes another picture of me!! Then he has the balls to come over and try and talk to me!

Drunken Asshole: That's not very nice of you to flip me off when I'm trying to take pictures of you.
Me: Excuse me? That is not okay for you to take pictures of me without my permission. You haven't even tried to talk to me and you're trying to take pictures of me. What are you the fucking paparazzi?
DA: Yes, I work for the Enquirer.
Me: That's nice, well I'm not famous so go away.
DA: You're a bitch! Fuck you!
Me: No, shit I'm a bitch. You're the asshole trying to take pictures of me!

The guy then walks off and then tries to come back over and I'm starting to lose my patience and I start telling the guy's friend to get him away and finally the dude goes back to the bar. Then I get up to go to the bathroom and when I come back my friend, Pat, is being talked to by the security guards. I'm all confused so I ask my other friends what's going on and apparently one of my friends told Pat about how the drunken asshole called me a bitch and Pat decided to be the typical male and try and kick the guys ass. So I have to go talk to the security guards and explain why Pat was so pissed. So they take Pat and the other guys outside and talk to them, but allows all of them back in. Then the security guard asks me about everything that happened and tells me he'll take care of it. Next thing I know two security guards are hovering over the three assholes and watch them finish their drinks and then kicks them out.

I never thought I would get three people kicked out of a bar, but I'm happy I did. I don't care that the guy called me a bitch. That's the least of my concerns, but I am not okay with some random guy taking pictures of me like I'm some object. I am a person not something to just be stared at so fuck off. Craziest night ever! Once again, I do not attract normal men!

2006-03-29T01:44:00.000-08:00

I just got back from the Strokes concert in San Diego. Oh. My. God. Best. Show. Ever. Julian Casablancas is so unbelievably hot. I have been waiting 5 years to see the Strokes and now I finally have. They did not disappoint me in the least. I can't even describe the feeling that I had at that concert. I have never been starstruck before, but tonight I was. Every time Julian spoke I about melted. I love his voice. LOVE IT! One of the best days of my life. I'm not going to be able sleep. This makes no sense! Good night!

2006-03-22T14:04:00.000-08:00

I believe that I am cursed. I am cursed because I am 5'1, I have a big ass and I have red hair which means I can not attract normal men. No seriously I can't. Being a red head is hard enough because we always attract weirdos that are obsessed with red heads. Then being short by itself is hard because we attract weirdos that are obsessed with short girls. I AM BOTH! I am short with a big ass and a red head, not to mention I have freckles. Do you realize what kind of freaks this means I attract?

I attract men that are 55 with missing teeth and thugs, neither of which I am attracted to. I get lines like, "I like short girls" or "I've always had a thing for red heads." These men wave at me in traffic and blow me kisses. When I drive up the 5 to go home, I get about 5 or 6 truck drivers that honk at me. *vomit* The first couple times this happened I just shrugged it off with, "Everybody gets nasty men hitting on them." Then after about 5 years of only nasty men hitting on me, I have realized that those are the only men I attract.

Is it my perfume? Do I need to read the bottle more carefully? Does it actually say "Warning: May attract old men with missing teeth or freaks that like to touch your hair without your permission?" Do I have a sign on my back that says "Please make obscene gestures towards me?" Maybe I am so delusional about my love affair with George Clooney that I have convinced myself I am seriously dating him and flying off to Lake Como on weekends so I am giving off this vibe that I am unavailable.

I have been single for so long that it's almost embarrassing, but that's not what is even bothering me. I like being single. I have no desire for a boyfriend, I mean I already have George, but I would at least like to be hit on by a semi-attractive human being for once. Is this too much to ask for? Don't get me wrong, I don't think I'm the hottest thing on the planet, but I do at least know that I am more attractive than a 55 year old man with missing teeth. Or am I? Maybe I should just go ahead and put on my overalls, get my pitchfork and head down to the South because I'm starting to think that God is telling me that these are the only men I am ever going to attract.

2006-03-21T22:54:00.000-08:00

This weekend I came down with the most miserable illness. I can't tell if it's the flu or a cold, but I have a feeling it's the flu because my whole entire body aches. So basically I felt like utter shit this weekend so who's better then George Clooney to make a sick girl look at the brightside of life? This weekend I have watched Ocean's Eleven, Ocean's Twelve, Out of Sight, and countless hours of ER to get myself a healthy dose of my Georgie Boy. Since I'm sick and I have absolutely nothing to post about I decided I would brighten all of your days by posting pictures of the Sexiest Man Alive, 1997. If you would actually like to see something entertaining go to Gloria's blog and hear me drunkenly sing "Trapped in the closet."

I'm feeling much better now.

P.S. I will do a real post tomorrow.

2006-03-05T22:33:00.000-08:00

Observations made while watching the Oscars and drinking $5 wine:

Jon Stewart in bed with George Clooney = hott. Two of my favorite men in bed together...hmmm

Jon Stewart is my hero.

I think they should keep the camera on George Clooney all night long and call it the "Sexy Cam"

George likes to announce he was the Sexiest Man Alive, 1997 at every given opportunity! I love him for it.

I HATE Charlize Theron. Being a beautiful person and playing an ugly person does not make you a good actress. Stop taking these roles. You are boring. P.S. You have a big ugly black bow on your shoulder.

NOOOOoooooo...Spoon is on a Jaguar commercial! Dear lord!

I love Reese Witherspoon. Best speech of the night!

Crash? Crash? Are you fucking kidding me? Did the Academy even watch the other four movies???!!

$5 wine makes me an angry bitter woman!

One of the funniest things I heard in one of the celebrity interviews was by George Clooney, "Ya know this Ang Lee guy? I don't like him. I think he's a Communist."

Overall the Oscars were enjoyable. I hope Jon is invited back!

2006-03-04T12:26:00.000-08:00

The Oscars are on Sunday so I thought I would make my predictions. I don't know how much they are predictions, but rather who I want to win. (The ones in bold are who I want to win)

Best Actor in a Leading Role:
Phillip Seymour Hoffman: Capote
Terrence Howard: Hustle and Flow
Heath Ledger: Brokeback Mountain
Joaquin Phoenix: Walk the Line
David Strathairn: Good Night and Good Luck

This was a tough decision between Heath Ledger and Joaquin Phoenix, but seeing Heath transform throughout the movie was amazing so I had to go with him, but if Joaquin wins I won't be too disappointed.

Best Actor in a Supporting Role:
George Clooney: Syriana
Matt Dillon: Crash
Paul Giamatti: Cinderella Man
Jake Gyllenhaal: Brokeback Mountain
William Hurt: A History of Violence

I believe that this year there will be the first ever tie for a category. Actually, I just can't be forced to choose between the two loves of my life. That's like asking me to choose between my parents.

Best Actress in a Leading Role:
Judi Dench: Mrs. Henderson Presents
Felicity Huffman: Transamerica
Keira Knightley: Pride and Prejudice
Charlize Theron: North Country
Reese Witherspoon: Walk the Line

I love Keira Knightley and Felicity Huffman, but Reese Witherspoon was so good in Walk the Line and she's just too cute not to like. I'm not a big fan of chick flicks, but I always like hers because I just love her. If Charlize Theron wins I will be beyond livid. I hate her. She thinks she's such a good actress because in every movie she makes herself ugly and so therefore she deserves an Oscar.

Best Actress in a Supporting Role:
Amy Adams: Junebug
Catherine Keener: Capote
Frances McDormand: North Country
Rachel Weisz: The Constant Gardener
Michelle Williams: Brokeback Mountain

I was talking about Michaelle Williams with my mom the other day and we both agreed that her reaction to finding out that her husband was actually gay was just amazing. I also just really like her so I picked her:)

Best Animated Feature:
Howl's Moving Castle
Tim Burton's The Corpse Bride
Wallace and Gromit in the Curse of the Were-Rabbit

Wallace and Gromit was one of the funniest movies I saw this year. Very well done and I thought The Corpse Bride was unbelievably boring.

Best Directing:
Brokeback Mountain
Capote
Crash
Good Night and Good Luck
Munich

It was hard for me not to pick George, but I have never been speechless at the end of a movie the way I was with Brokeback Mountain. A lot of that was the acting, but I think that had it been a different director the movie would have had a completely different feel.

Best Picture:
Brokeback Mountain
Capote
Crash
Good Night and Good Luck
Munich

Once again I have never been speechless at the end of a movie the way I was with Brokeback Mountain.

Best Writing(Adapted Screenplay):
Brokeback Mountain
Capote
The Constant Gardener
A History of Violence
Munich

Amazing script.

Best Writing(Original Screeplay):
Crash
Good Night and Good Luck
Match Point
The Squid and the Whale
Syriana

I love my George Clooney.

2006-03-01T15:42:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I was in Best Buy sending my iPod off to be fixed for the second time and also purchasing the movies Walk the Line and Pride and Prejudice. I was walking down one of the isles when I saw one of the twenty-something-year-old workers speaking to one of his coworkers and I heard him say as I was walking past, one of the dumbest things I think I have ever heard. These are the words that this kid had the audacity to speak, "Yeah, I was listening to Johnny Cash way before everyone else did and now you go to the bars and that's all you hear is Johnny Cash. They don't even play the good songs either!" I wanted to turn around and say to him, "Really, you were listening to Johnny Cash before ANYONE else? Really? How old are you again? You must age really well because I thought Johnny Cash made it big in the 50's."

I absolutely cannot stand people like this. They are almost always stupid scenster kids that dress like they're punk and then they wear their Hurley hats!! You did not discover Johnny Cash. You did not listen to him before anyone else did! So get over the fact that an awesome movie has made a lot of younger people that would have been too stupid to ever give Johnny Cash a chance, made him popular again. It is a phase. It will pass. You will live. Then when they make a movie about the Beatles you can talk about how you listened to the Beatles before everyone else did and how they don't even play their good songs at bars!

2006-02-23T22:41:00.000-08:00

Since the Olympics are on I have been feeling patriotic lately and purely because I am competitive and I like to see my team win. I'm one of those obnoxious Americans that only think we do well when we win gold and I yell, "You suck, I could do better than you!" when someone screws up in the smallest of ways.

Then tonight I decided to catch up on my TV shows that I have been TiVo-ing and that is when the patriotism that I have been feeling over the past week flew out the window. I decided to TiVo Oprah because I knew Anderson Cooper was going to be on her show reporting on what has been happening down in the areas that were devastated by Hurricane Katrina and I love me some Anderson Cooper.

Okay people, I knew that those poor people were being neglected, but I had no idea how bad it really is. I knew that FEMA wasn't doing anything and has been pulling a lot of bereaucratic bullshit when asked why they aren't getting anything done, but dear lord they have done absolutely nothing. I knew that people were being kicked out of their hotels and their apartments, but what I did not realize is how little FEMA has done to clean up the devastated areas.

It has been 6 months since Hurricane Katrina and you are still not able to walk on the grass because ecoli is in the ground that you can become infected with! With that in mind, people are living in trailers on this infected grass because they have nowhere to go! People's possessions are still everywhere. It doesn't look like the bulldozers have cleared anything and it has been 6 months!!!!! The government isn't doing anything to clear away all the wreckage and they have the balls to kick people out of hotels and apartments because they don't want to pay for them anymore? Are you serious? These people are still in those hotels and apartments because they have nowhere else to go! They don't choose to be crammed onto a cruise ship cabin or have 6 people living in one tiny hotel room. People don't choose to live like this!

Ignorance really is the American way. Most White Americans didn't think the lack of response by the government days after the hurricane hit was a racial issue. I'm sorry, but if the hurricane had hit, oh I don't know TEXAS, the way it had hit Louisiana and Mississippi, you sure as hell know that Bush would have sent FEMA out there the day it happened! New Orleans has a huge African American community and is also one of poorest cities in the United States. Why is this, my friends? Because the system works against minorities! Why didn't people evacuate like they were advised? Because they were too poor and therefore did not have the means to do so! Why did these people then sit on their roofs for days and days after the hurricane hit? Once again, the system works against minorities. It's a vicious cycle and it's infuriating and I'm ashamed to be an American!

We are the largest economy in the world. We are fighting a bullshit trillion dollar war against people who have never done anything to us and you're telling me that we don't have the money to help out our own people? What's wrong with this picture?

Normally I would whine about Republicans and the Bush administration, but not this time. I've always known this, but in the back of my mind I try and tell myself I am associated with the better party being a Democrat and all, but the representation for the Democratic party are no better than the Republicans. They don't seem to be doing a whole lot trying to change what is going on in New Orleans and that is why I have decided that I am going to be an Independent from now on. I've been leaning that way for a couple months now and seeing what is going on down there has pushed me over the edge. I refuse to be associated with two horribly corrupt parties any longer.

Americans need to open up their eyes and see what is going on around them in their own country and see what their own President is doing. President Clinton was impeached for cheating on his wife which was none of our business. President Bush has sent us into a war on false pretenses, he did not respond to his own suffering people for 5 days while watching them wither away on national television, he had reports that 9/11 was going to occur, but ignored the reports, has not found the man that killed 3,000 people, need I go on? Think of all the scandals that have been going on over only the past two years of this administration and just think of how much more is going to come out over the next two years. Scary thought, isn't it?

I know this is long and if you've read this far I'm surprised. Watching that show just dragged out all the anger and sadness that I felt when Katrina first occurred all over again and I needed to get it off my chest. If you don't agree with me, don't bother writing a nasty comment because I will read the first sentence and then stop and delete your comment. I don't want to hear any opposition because you're just another ignorant American if you disagree with me.

2006-02-22T12:24:00.000-08:00

I believe that me moving to San Francisco has been destined since the moment I was born. I was born in Northern California during the greatest era of Bay Area sports. In 1985 the 49ers had just won their second Superbowl in 3 years. Joe Montana was our quarterback and Jerry Rice was about to enter his first year in the NFL. Then 49ers would then go on to win 3 more Superbowls over the next 10 years. Jerry Rice became the greatest wide receiver of all time. The Niners management snubbed Joe Montana and sent him to Kansas City, but Montana was replaced by Steve Young. To grow up in Northern California and not be a Niners fan during this time period would be like growing up in Boston and not being a Red Sox fan.

Joe Montana, the greatest quarterback of all time.

Jerry Rice, the greatest wide receiver of all time. My hero for the first 15 years of my life.

Steve Young, the 2nd greatest quarterback of all time. I saw Steve Young in person once. It was the strangest feeling in the world to be in the presence of greatest. I just wanted to go up to him and shake his hand and explain to him that he was God to me for about 8 years of my life.

Not only were the 49ers doing well during the mid to late 80's, but the Giants were as well and that's all because of Will "The Thrill" Clark. in 1989 the Giants went to the World Series. It was called the Bay Series because we were playing the Oakland Athletics. A huge earthquake happened in Game One and we ended up losing the series. The Giants have kind of made me a masochist. Every year they break my heart and I feel like I can't move for two months after the season, but every year I go back for more. They are my heart and my soul.

One of my very first memories is of a Giants game. I was two or three and I was at Candlestick Park in San Francisco. I had my cotton candy and I was jumping up and down yelling, "Will Clark! Will Clark!"

The love I have for my two sports teams, no matter how pathetic they may be right now, has made it inevitable; I will have to move to San Francisco. Hopefully with my degree is Physical Therapy I will be able to work for the Giants. Baseball is my world. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about moving to San Francisco and working for the Giants and maybe one day that dream will finally become a reality. If not, I know that in 60 years I will be one of those little old ladies at SBC Park with my 2006 Giants pins on my hat and my old school Giants gear cheering on my team every game. Getting old scares me, but the that thought right there makes me smile.

2006-02-13T12:46:00.000-08:00

I am not one that is big on designers or fashion, for that matter, but I do love shoes more than anything in the world and purses come in at a close second. Marc Jacobs is the one designer that I am absolutely in love with though. Everytime I see something Marc Jacobs my heart skips a beat and I have been dreaming of owning something of his for years and on Saturday my dream finally came true!

This is my amazing new purse that I bought. What is crazy about this purse is that I was bidding on it about a month ago on ebay and it got up to around $350 and it is worth about $100 less than that so I have come to the conclusion that people on ebay are stupid!

This purse is the new love of my life and it will be my valentine for many years to come. Every time I look at it I just smile. I took it out on Saturday night and we had a great time. I'm looking forward to our next date on Tuesday night when a bunch of my friends and I go out to an Irish pub to celebrate that fact that we are indeed single. I guess I will have to break it to my friends that I have found The One, but something tells me they will be okay with this one.

2006-02-06T22:06:00.000-08:00

I am officially 21 and as great as my birthday weekend was, I am SO glad it is OVER! Now I am here to tell you about my weekend and I will provide you with lots of pictures because pictures are my favorite.

So Friday afternoon I put on my cowboy boots and Rachel and I began our journey up the 5. The trip was going just fine until 5 miles before our exit to take the 152 over to the 101 and we found ourselves sitting on the 5 and the 152 was shut down. So Rachel and I decided to take the Jetta up over the middle divider of on the 5 and head back down to Kettleman City to get over to the 101. I am proud of my Jetta. The trip that was supposed to take 5 1/2 hours ended up taking us 9 hours and 15 minutes. I started to think it was an omen for how the rest of the weekend was going to be and oh, it was!

When I finally got to my brother's I walked in the door to find this lovely display! I also got the best presents this year. Cool makeup, a very cool 80's CD set(that came with a lovely drawn card), shoes and LOTS of money and gift cards!

Then Saturday morning all of us girls got up and drove to San Francisco. I was reminded of why I loved San Francisco so much when I drove up the 101 and there was Candlestick(aka Monster Park) where the Niners play. The Niners and the Giants, two reasons big enough for me to change my location!

After a little shopping we deicded to stop for some lunch.

This is my ordering me first drink!

Later on that night we went out to sushi and then we went to a bar on Union St. called the Blue Lights. Here is a picture of all of us. Nicole, Jen, Jeff, me, and Jen.

Yay for sisters! Jen and me! Can't you tell since we both did the same pose?

I love my brother!

Rachel and me

When I was heavily intoxicated Taylor showed up so here is a picture of me. I look relatively sober, but who would have known that an hour and a half later I would have been puking in a toilet?

Here are the rest of the boys that came and met up with us. Taylor, Joel, Austin and Margaret(the waitress). This is the picture of me with my last shot of the night and that last shot is what did me in.

An hour later I was puking in the toilet. I puked on the street. I cried because I scared the cabdriver. I puked some more in the hotel toilet. Rachel puked with me. I woke up the next morning and puked a whole lot more. Around 2:30 the next afternoon I was finally able to eat something and keep it down. I have a huge bruise on my chest and I have no idea what it is from. My abs are sore from puking so much. Two days later I am still trying to recover.

My 21st birthday was great, but would I ever repeat it? Not a chance in hell, but I will never forget it. I lived the typical 21st birthday and I got drunker then I had ever been before. I am now 21, but I don't feel any differently, but hey I can drink legally now!

2006-01-30T15:12:00.000-08:00

Countdown to 21: 5 days

A few things have changed since I last posted...school has started and I finished my scarf! I'm pretty optimistic about this semester even though the reading load is insane and I had to spend $450 on 15 books and one of the five classes I am taking doesn't have a book. My professors seem pretty cool, but I am definitely going to have to work my ass off to work four days a week and keep up with the reading. So this is what I'm taking:

POSC312: Constitutional Law Rights
POSC423: American Presidency
MUSC290: Popular Music in America
POSC362: SOcial and National Politics in China
POSC304: Recent Political Theory

My music class is obviously going to be a joke, but it is one of those stupid General Education classes I had to get out of the way and it fit my scheudle so hey, that is a bit less thinking I will have to do this semester and that is fine with me. My other four Political Sciences classes are going to kill my anyway.

My birthday is this weekend and I'm a little nervous, but I'm really excited. San Francisco is going to be great and it will be good to get to see my brother and my soon-to-be sister-in-law. Given the craziness of this upcoming week as well as this weekend, I don't think I will be able to post until after my birthday, but I guarantee there will be pleanty of entertaining stories and pictures to make up for it:) Have a great week/weekend!

2006-01-26T00:02:00.000-08:00

Count down to 21: 9 days(single digits!)

I'm not going to name names because they would all die of embarrassment, but quite a few Ultimate Fighters come into my work and for some reason, today all of them came in at separate times. I think they're doing this promotional thing, but because my work advertises for them and they advertise for us they give us a really good deal at their gym and today every single one of them was trying to get me into their gym. I told them I was doing Tae Bo and they all got mad at me!

So here's my deal. I pay $30 a month and one of them will be my personal trainer and they will get my fat ass into shape, but I'm a little nervous about it. It's not like I would date any of them because 1) they're all man-whores and 2) I like tall skinny boys, not boys with rippling muscles that beat the shit out of other boys for a living type.

I'm just nervous because well I'm not in the best shape of my life right now and I would have to see these boys at work after I die at the gym in front of them. Not to mention, I would kind of feel like a groupie slut haha. I kind of flirt with all of them when they come in so they'll buy stuff from me and I don't want to give off the wrong impression.

So we'll see what I end up doing. Thirty bucks is such a good deal so maybe if I can get my roommate the same deal and she will go die with me I'll do it.

2006-01-24T23:58:00.000-08:00

Countdown to 21: 10 days

First off, I just want to thank everyone for their kind words. It meant a lot to me:)

I never thought I'd say this, but thank God my sister tagged me because I honestly have had nothing to write about because for the past 9 days straight I have been working and well, when you work in a tanning salon, life isn't too exciting. I go to work and hand out a little dose of cancer to everyone that comes in and I call it a day.

Four Jobs You Have Had in Your Life:
1. Tanning consultant
2. Hostess/Phone Bitch
3. Babysitter
4. Volunteer at the local TV station for the Sports boys

Four Movies You Could Watch Over and Over:
1. Lost in Translation
2. Lord of the Rings
3. The Royal Tenenbaums
4. Out of Sight

Four Places You've Lived:
1. Sacramento, CA
2. Redding, CA
3. Long Beach, CA
4. Huntington Beach, CA

Four TV Shows You Love to Watch:
1. 24
2. Grey's Anatomy
3. Lost
4. Project Runway

Four Places You've Been on Vacation:
1. Cancun
2. Italy
3. Hawaii
4. NYC

Four Websites You Visit Daily:
1. gmail.com
2. myspace.com
3. cnn.com
4. espn.com

Four of Your Favorite Foods:
1. sushi
2. anything with cheese in the title
3. cheeseburgers
4. french fries

Four Places You'd Rather Be Right Now:
1. SF...10 more days!
2. NYC
3. London
4. Disneyland

Four Bloggers You're Tagging:
I don't tag people because I don't know enough people that blog to tag them:)

2006-01-17T23:25:00.000-08:00

Today I found that my last remaining grandparent passed away today. Last January my grandpa was diagnosed with liver cancer and was given 3 months to live and here it is exactly one week shy of a year so I'm taking it pretty well considering I've had almost a year to prepare myself for this event. It is still a sad thing and not because he was my last grandparent, but because my grandpa was a pretty cool guy since he straightened out his life in his older age.

I'm going to miss going over to his house and playing Cribbage with him while listening to 40's music.

I'm going to miss asking him if it feels weird when he eats without his teeth in.

I'm going to miss hearing him talk about WWII and how he would break Japanese codes.

I'm going to miss hearing him laugh, more like cackle, everytime I accuse him of cheating. When I was 9 years old my grandpa cheated me in Poker and I finally figured it out because whenever he would start cheating he would start cackling and I eventually wrote an essay about it in one of my classes. Which leads me to another thing I'm going to miss about him. I'm going to miss hearing about how he still has that essay I wrote about him and cheating in Poker everytime I see him.

I'm going to miss his hugs.

And I'm going to miss seeing him walk into the house wearing his Harley Davidson hat.

I'm going to miss telling him why the Cardinals and the Braves suck and the Giants rule.

I never knew my other grandpa because he died before I was born and I'm almost kind of glad I never met him because I wouldn't want to have anyone else to compare my grandpa to. I never really got very close with my two grandmas so I'm really going to miss my grandpa and I'm so glad the family was able to get together this Christmas to say good-bye to him. My family is everything to me and even though I know it was time for my grandpa to go, it still means that there is a little less family in my life now. I'll miss you, Grandpa and I love you with all my heart.

2006-01-15T19:50:00.000-08:00

These two pictures show all that is beautiful when it comes to drinking...

More pictures here

Also, 24 Oh...My...God...I think I gasped 30 times in the first 10 minutes!

2006-01-11T17:07:00.000-08:00

Countdown to 21: 24 days

I saw Match Point last night, which was really good, but also incredibly disturbing and fucked up. The music was great and well, now I want to go to London even more.

I'm not here to talk about Match Point though. As disturbing as it was, I saw something even more disturbing during the previews. I don't know if any of you have seen the preview for the new Mandy Moore movie, American Dreamz(click link to see the trailer), but not only does it look terrible, but it's flat out racist. I like Mandy Moore. I think she's cute and she's a fairly good actress compared to the other musicians trying to act these days.

So I guess the premise of the movie is this singing competition, American Dreamz, that is very similar to our own American Idol. One of the contestants is Muslim and part of the storyline is that at the end of the competition he is going to blow everyone up! I'm sorry, but America doesn't need any more encouragement to think that all people of Middle Eastern decent are terrorists. So so wrong! There's also this nice little line when one of the terrorists says something along the lines of, "They don't call me the torturer for nothing!" Hmmm...funny, I recall our WHITE, CHRISTIAN Vice President, Dick Cheney encouraging the people to vote for the CIA to be able to torture. America's ignorance still astounds me.Maybe there is something missing from the preview and in the actual movie and the kid has a change of heart or something, but from the previews it just looks bad!

Another movie that I'm nervous about is Flight 93 (Click link for trailer). It's about the people that fought the terrorists and the plane crashed in Pennsylvania on September 11th. I'm worried they're going to turn it into a really bad action film, like Armageddon or something. The preview just gives me the feeling the movie is going to be so so so wrong and disrespectful. For the families sakes, I hope not. God Bless America!

2006-01-09T21:37:00.000-08:00

Countdown to 21: 26 days

So I know I've been away for quite some time, but now I am back and I am back as a whole new me. I've changed my major. I've gone on a diet. And I've started working out every night. As excited as I am to be almost 21, part of me has freaked out and has seen it as a sign that I am getting old and I still have no idea what I am going to do with my life. Yes, yes. I know this sounds incredibly absurd to be freaking out over these kinds of things at the mere age of 21, but I am the girl that is so terrified of failure that it practically consumes my life and thus...I MUST have a plan!

Currently I am a Political Science major with a minor in History. Lately, history has not been doing it for me, but since I'm 6 units away from getting my minor I figured I might as well go on with that. Then people always ask me what I am going to do with my Political Science major and it's not like they just ask, they practically scoff at my major. They basically say, "What the hell are you going to do with that kind of major?" As much as that tone may irk me, the truth is, I never have an answer. I end up defending my diginity by saying, "I'm going to get my Masters and then who knows." That question and my answer has been plaguing me for awhile now and I don't know if it's the 4 seasons of ER I've been watching non-stop or what, but I have started to debate going to Med School or being a Physical Therapist. At the moment I am leaning towards Physical Therapy. I think I would be happy doing it, I can keep my major, I just have to drop my minor and it would be a great way to help me enter the world of baseball. For so long the future was a big blurry mess, but now I have somewhat of a picture of what my life is going to be like. What's even better is that I want to move to SF so badly and SF State has a PT program so that works out even better! I finally feel motivated so I think this is going to work out great.

Here are my movie reviews for Carolyn(Thanks for the Christmas card!!)...

Chronicles of Narnia- I had a lot of issues with this move, but I think it's because I never read the books so I didn't feel much of an attachment to what was going on. It was a bit to little kid-ish for me. It was well done and pretty, but boring and anti-climatic in some parts. My reaction to the movie was, "Eh."

Syriana- Really good and really confusing. I spaced out in a couple parts and then I got lost and had no clue what was going on. The acting is really good and it's pretty intense. Georgie boy isn't so hot in it, but he's still great in it and I will love him until the day I die!!!

King Kong- I cannot believe this movie was three hours long. It was so much fun and the special effects were great. I never thought Adian Brody was hot until I saw this movie. He's a babe.

So I'm back now and I promise to keep posting more often!

2005-12-19T13:21:00.000-08:00

So it's the day before I go home to Redding and when I should be packing before I have to head off to work for the 7th day in a row, I am blogging because I haven't done this is so long and I know you guys are just dying to know what has been going on in my life that has been keeping me from doing so! So here's the good news, lots of pictures!!

Living in Southern California and being from Northern California makes it very hard to get in the Christmas spirit when it's 70 degrees outside and sunny so Rachel and I went to Target and ended up spending around $200 on Christmas decorations to get us and our apartment in the spirit of our favorite holiday.

So here is our beautiful fake tree that now has lots of presents under it.

Here are our stockings. We even made one for Lucy, the dog. Glitter pens rock!

Here is our lovely welcome mat! I don't have pictures our Christmas lights, but they are absolutely ridiculous, that is for sure.

On Friday after work Rachel, Michelle and I headed up to LA to go pick up my sister and go on over to the Beverly Center. That place will be the end of me. If I didn't have such self control I would have walked out of there with no money for rent and my parents would have killed me. Here's some pictures of some of the things I got...

I bought yet another pair of shoes from Steve Madden. My other pair of silver shoes are pretty much dead and I loved them so much that I've been searching for a new pair to own my heart and these aren't quite as cute, but they will work.

Then I bought this jacket and this shirt. I've been looking for a big comfy jacket to wear when I go home because it will be snowing!! Purple usually isn't something I buy, but I loved this jacket so much I got it anyway.

After the Beverly Center, we dropped off my sister and headed over to The Grove, which was a horrible horrible decision because it was pure insanity. I was so excited because my favorite sports writer, Bill Simmons, was doing a book signing at the Barnes & Noble. For awhile I was thinking about becoming a sports writer and that was because of him and even though I have changed my aspirations in life, I still love him. I was really scared he was going to turn out to be an ass, but he was so cool and funny in person. So here's a picture of what he wrote in my book:)

Last night was mine and Rachel's big Christmas dinner party. We invited over 10 of our friends and we cooked Rosemary chicken with lemon as the main dish and a garden salad and a spinach salad. Michelle made this cheese tortellini salad thing that was amazing! Anissa, Dana, Annie, and Eizelle brought some spinach dip and bread. It all went together really well. For desert we had Root Beer floats with Vanilla Vodka and Cheesecake with caramel sauce. It was so good and the party turned out to be a blast so here's some pictures of that.

Me, Amy, and Rachel

Dana, Annie, Eizelle and Anissa

Me and Anissa

Me and Michelle

Eizelle and Anissa

There's my update. I'm sure my sister and I will be taking plenty of pictures while we're in the Ding! I hope you all have a wonderful Holiday! Happy Holidays(I'm saying that purely out of spite to piss off Bill O'Reilly)!

2005-12-07T14:41:00.000-08:00

Finals will be the end of me.

Wednesday: Write International Politics paper. Write Astronomy paper.
Thursday: Class, Work, study
Friday: Write Scope and Methods paper, work, Syriana
Saturday: Study all day long, Starbucks will be my home
Sunday: Study, work, study
Monday: study, work
Tuesday: International Politics final, Astronomy final, The Great Depression and WWII final
Wednesday: Study for Racial and Ethnic Politics final, do Scope/Method Final
Thursday: Turn in Scope and Methods final, Racial and Ethnic Politics final, work
Friday: work, finish xmas shopping
Saturday: work, Christmas dinner party
Sunday: Work
Monday: Work, pack
Tuesday: HOME!

In the midst of all this I have to finish knitting two scarves. Life is GOOD!

2005-12-01T22:04:00.000-08:00

Since I have absolutely nothing to write about I figured I would do my sister's tag thing so that I can please my oh so loyal readers(Carolyn). I know I have complained about these things before, but since my life consists of nothing other than work and school and movies, I might as well just do this. Maybe I'll stick my foot in my mouth along the way...

TEN random things you might not know about me.
1: I have a thing for older men. George Clooney, Clive Owen, the 35 year old guy that comes into my work and the list goes on!
2: I have webbed toes.
3: I have never received a detention in all my years of school.
4: My guilty pleasures are Kelly Clarkson and Nsync.
5: I am unbelievably shy around guys that I think are attractive and I think I don't have a chance with.
6: I hate my freckles.
7: I have only been dumped once.
8: I hate feet almost as much as I hate George W. Bush.
9: My dream is to throw the first pitch at a baseball game.
10: The only people I like to call me "Pen" are my family members and it irks me when other people that I'm not related to call me it.

NINE places I’ve visited.
1: Cancun
2: Rome
3: Canada
4: Hawaii
5: NYC
6: Florence
7: Venice
8: Orlando
9: Washington D.C.

EIGHT ways to win my heart
1: Give me alcohol for free.
2: Give me food for free.
3: Don't flake on me
4: Use sarcasm at all times.
5: Don't be afraid to speak your mind.
6: Be open minded.
7: Give me a back rub.
8: Be there for me when it is obvious I need you to be there.

SEVEN things I want to do before I die
1: See the Giants win the World Series.
2: Meet JT Snow
3: Buy each of my family members something nice.
4: Become God.....jokes
5: Make a decent amount of money.
6: Visit every baseball park in America.
7: Go to London.

SIX things I’m afraid of
1: Failure
2: Failure
3: Failure
4: Failure
5: Failure
6: Feet

FIVE things I don't like
1: George W. Bush
2: Bill O'Reilly
3: Sean Hannity
4: Left-lane drivers
5: Linkin Park

FOUR ways to turn me off
1: Like Linkin Park.
2: Have a lifted truck.
3: Have bleached hair.
4: Be a moron and not in a comical sense.

THREE Things I do everyday
1: Check my email.
2: Call at least one of my family members.
3: Laugh.

TWO things that make me happy
1: My family.
2: Baseball!!

ONE thing on my mind right now
1: Is this semester over yet?

2005-11-19T16:32:00.000-08:00

I knew when I talked to my brother on the phone today and he was complaining to me about how I haven't posted in forever that it had been far too long. I promise I've actually been busy. I can't believe it's only Saturday, I've already done so much!

Thursday night was super fun! My friend, Barbara, and I were going to see Spoon at the Wiltern in L.A. We figured we would just head on up to L.A. to beat the horrific traffic and we ended up stopping by and seeing my sister who I haven't seen since October! SAD! Then we headed over with my sister to see the ladies at Stitch n Bitch, who I have not seen in forever since I work every Thursday night! It was so good to see all those ladies. Next semester I'm making sure I don't work on Thursday nights so I can see them. After hanging out with those ladies for a little bit, Barbara and I headed over to the Wiltern to see SPOOOONNNN!

So here's Barbara and me.

The concert was so fun and the Wiltern is such a cool venue. Forgive me for not knowing the opening bands names, but I feel like I need to talk about one of them for a second. The first opening band was fun and entertaining, but the second band was on a whole other level. Imagine the Christian rock version of Hootie and the Blowfish. That is exactly what they sounded like. When they first came out I was waiting for them to stop playing and start laughing and be like, "Okay guys, we're just kidding, now we'll start our real show!" They never did, but they DID play songs like "Sick of food" that included lyrics like "I'm sick of food, so why am I still hungry?" and another classic liner that went along the lines of, "She's a little girl that's experiencing the world."

Spoon was so much fun though. The lead singer is adorable. Not to mention, we got an encore performance and most bands do one or two songs for an encore, but they did 4 or 5. Spoon will forever be good in my book. The only thing I was bummed about was, I swear to God they played every song off all their albums except for my favorite one. That was kind of a bummer, but I still have a great time!

After the show, I took Barbara to my favorite place in the world, aside from Disneyland....The Statue House! If I ever met the guy who created this piece of wonder I would shake his hand and tell him he's my hero.

Friday night I saw Harry Potter with Wes. Super fun. It starts off slow, but pulls together pretty well. The director did a great job on portraying teenage angst and the beginning of dating. Super cute and funny!

I also got another bag this weekend. It's from the same girl that I mentioned in my last post. This bag is even bigger and I love it!

The picture doesn't really show how big it is, but it's huge! I love big bags!

I wanted to show the cool button on it and on my other bag the button is really cool too.

And then this is the inside of it. FUN!

2005-11-10T21:42:00.000-08:00

I am not one for advertising on a blog or anything, but I am going to do it just this once. This girl that comes into the salon that I work at is the sweetest girl in the world and she makes the cutest bags I have seen in my entire life. She's 22 or 23 and her bags are seriously amazing. I was so excited digging through this bin of the bags she makes because they're so cute! I bought a bag from her tonight and I'm buying another one on Wednesday(see pics below). So anyway I thought I would post her information and if you guys like what you see maybe you can contact her and spread the words to your friends. Jen, I know you'll love her bags so I think I'm going to drag you down here and make you buy one, one of these days!

NeNe Bags
Unique Handmade Vintage Bags
NeNeBags@hotmail.com
Jennifer Watson
Owner/Designer
(714) 418-6710
8800 Delaware St. Suite 750 7A
Huntington Beach, CA 92648

2005-11-07T21:04:00.000-08:00

What is it with people and not having a personal space bubble? I mean, they're American, but yet, they feel it is okay to practically stand behind you with their belly touching you and they are a stranger! This past week I have experienced two terrible cases of people invading my bubble. Granted, my bubble is much larger than the average American, but both of these people were so close that one of them had their pot belly touching me and the other one was practically talking into my ear!

The first time it happened when I was waiting in line at my favorite sushi place. The guy was with his wife and I kept stepping forward to try and give myself some more space, but whenever I would step forward he would step forward! It got so bad that in the single-file-line that I was standing in turned into him standing next to me!! Does he not realize that I was next in line? Does he realize that he was directly after me and in no way could anyone steal his place in line? Apparently not!!

Work with me here people, we're American, we don't actually like each other, so just give each other a little more space. I live in Orange County so I guess I should just make a sign to put on my back that says "I'm a crazy liberal!" and they'll stay away from me. But seriously, the "United we stand" thing shouldn't be taken in a literal sense, it's supposed to be symbolic!

2005-11-02T22:26:00.000-08:00

Here is my theory of what men have small penises...I'll add more to it as I discover more signs of a small penis. Eizelle has recently informed me that this theory just might apply to men with pierced nipples as well.

Men who drive lifted trucks where the wheels are taller than my car.

Men who blare bands such as: Linkin Park, Godsmack, Limp Bizkit, etc. out their windows at all hours of the day.

Men who drive around peeling out just for the sake of peeling out.

Men who use the words "Hey baby" as a way of igniting a conversation with a woman.

Men who make kissy faces at me when I pull up next to them on the street.

Men who can't grasp the fact that overly baggy jeans should have been left in the 90's.

Men who tailgate me in their lifted oversized, gas guzzling, truck while blasting Linkin Park out their windows when I am going 50 in a 35 and driving in the right hand lane.

Men who make incredibly lame jokes about my name.

Men who lower their Honda civivs and put exhaust on them and drive around weaving in and out of traffic listening to trance music.

Men who use the word "Bro."

2005-11-02T00:37:00.000-08:00

I'm way too tired and lazy to write a post right now so here's the link to check out the pictures from the Halloween party I went to. WARNING: Some of the pictures are somewhat "busty."

2005-10-23T18:24:00.000-07:00

When is The Wonder Years going to come out on DVD? That was the greatest show ever created. I remember the entire family would sit in front of the TV and watch that show together. How could the show be bad? I mean one of the characters names was Winnie Cooper! Kevin Arnold was the cutest little boy in the world and Wayne perfectly captured the essence of what having an older brother is like(Love you, Jefe!). I was so excited when Nick at Nite was playing reruns, but then that stopped! I'm thinking about writing a letter to somebody to express my needs for The Wonder Years to be brought back into my life.

In other news, in the college world Halloween has officially begun! Rachel and my friend, Amy, works at Olive Garden and one of her coworkers was having a party in Cerritos so Rachel and I decided to tag along for the drunken fiesta. I drank way too much and on the way home I made Rachel stop at In & Out so I could go running out of the car to pee. I have honestly never had to pee that bad before. I thought I was going to pee my pants and had Rachel not stopped I would have done that! So here's some pictures!

Half of my costume is in Chico with Tara so this past weekend I had to deal with only having half a costume. I guess I'm a she-devil. I had the horns from last year and I bought some wings because I'm cheap and don't want to be spending a lot on a costume that I will most likely never wear again.

Rachel was Marilyn Monroe. We tried to recreate her famous picture. Not quite there, but close enough.

Rachel and I driving off to Cerritos!

This is what it would look like when Marilyn Monroe would drive a car.

Rachel and me at the party!

Amy was a firewoman. Lots of cleavage!

Here's all three of us. Half of my head is missing because Rachel's wig was so big!!

The quote of the night was, "Polyester hair just got in my eye! I'm going to die!"

Another one of my favorite moments was when some lameass boy that I had just met made a joke about my name and I said, "I'd take two steps backwards because I'm going to kick you in the balls." I then proceeded to glare and make mean comments to him for the rest of the night. Don't fuck with short women. We hold our own.

2005-10-17T21:23:00.000-07:00

This weekend was another fun-tastic event! Busy, but good. Friday was the big event. Rachel has been talking about how she wants to get another tattoo this past week so we went out to check out the places and actually ended up getting her one. Being the good roommate that I am, I held her hand the entire time. I don't know if I'll ever end up getting a tattoo, outlook not so good.

Rachel and her tattoo artist

Rachel's tattoo

So then on Saturday it was ladies night out. I met up with Kara, Katie, Nicole, and Janelle, who I have not seen in forever! We mosied on down to the good ol' Irvine Spectrum and had some burgers at Red Robin. Then headed back to Garden Grove and began the drinking part of the night which involved wine and fireworks. Wine makes me quite fiesty I realized!

The ladies!

Sunday night my other group of friends and I went to Knott's Scary Farm. It was a good time and get this, the EX came. It was relatively pain free. My favorite moment of the night was when Wes and I were sitting down waiting for the rest of the group to get done going on a ride(Wes gets motion sickness easily so he won't go on rides) when a random young boy comes up to us and says, "Are you two together?" Wes and I both said, "No, we're friends," and the kid then proceeds to ask, "So when are you gonna ask her out?" Wow! And this had to happen to me with the one boy I REALLY don't want to happen to me with! It ended up being fine though and I think he had a good time.

In other news, the rain is here!! It feels like Christmas and I've already started celebrating! I went to Starbucks and got hot chocolate and my Frank Sinatra CD is already playing in my car! I love the holidays and thank God winter is here!!

2005-10-09T20:43:00.000-07:00

So this past week has been mania. MANIA! I have worked a total of 30 hours. I have completed 5 midterms and somehow I have maintained SOMEWHAT of a social life. My favorite part of all this chaos is that it occurred during the week that I decided to quit drinking soda! Yes, people, I am on day 7 and I'm still going strong! Amidst all this chaos, I have been dealing with the chaos of my room. My apartment complex is installing washers and dryers in our apartment and by our apartment, I mean in my closet! My entire closet is on my floor.
See Here:

Can you tell how happy I am that my lovely clothes are all on my floor? Oh it is bliss trying to find clothes when you are half awake and having to dig through piles upon piles of clothes!

Moving on. I never got the chance to post about last weekend, which was the big weekend. Since most of you read my sister's blog, you've already gotten the jist of it, but I will show you more pictures and won't be referring to my friends and me as a "gaggle of girls!" So it was my roommate, Rachel's 21st birthday on the 24th and since she went to Vegas that weekend, we decided the weekend of the 1st would be the big LA bash! We started out with a little bit of shopping at the Beverly Center.
Here is what I purchased!

I think I now have about 100 pairs of Steve Madden shoes. It is horrible, but I just can't NOT get a pair when I'm in there and this time I got two!!

Jenna, Me, Juliette, and Rachel(The birthday girl!) Right before we head off to Justin Timberlake's restaurant, Chi!

Back from the restaurant, in our pjs, and ready to start some drinking games!

Jenna is a little overenthusiastic!

Giving Jenna some justice and showing how cute she actually is before this next picture! haha!

Jenna is what one likes to call " a bit of a freak," but we love her nonetheless!

We finished off a bottle of vodka that night, needless to say our drinks were sometimes a little bit strong!

2005-10-02T19:38:00.000-07:00

Today was the last game of the 2005 season for the San Francisco Giants and may also be the last game that my favorite player in the entire world, my boy, my pride and joy, the greatest man in the entire world, the man that this blog is named after, the one and only JT Snow will ever play. I am so glad that I wasn't at that game because I would have been a total wreck. I think I would have cried the entire game.

It is players like JT that make me love baseball and make me realize how great it really is. He is just a great guy all around and he was one of the few players in the league that actually played for the love of the game. It wasn't about money or winning or sponsors, it was about baseball. He was loyal to the Giants and it is a sad day in baseball since they are losing him.

You know JT is a great guy because he was able to do what so few people do, replace a legend. Before JT, our first baseman was Will "The Thrill" Clark. Will Clark was a godsend. He was and still is a legend and JT was able to come into San Francisco and win over every single Giants fan's heart. He is an amazing guy and we will all miss him. I'll miss his high socks. I'll miss watching him dive into the seats to catch a foul ball. I'll miss watching him chew his gum and blow bubbles the size of his head and then they pop and splat across his face and then he has to sit there and pick it off his face for the rest of the inning. I'll miss seeing the great guy standing on first with his black streaks under his eyes punching his glove waiting for the next play to occur. Everytime September comes around I will miss watching JT's hitting soar because that's what he does when it's September. He always was amazing when it really mattered. I'll never forget the 2002 season when he hit over .420 to get us to the World Series and I will never ever forget every single one of his amazing hits and home runs and catches that he made for us throughout the past 9 amazing years that he has played for us. I love you, JT and you will always be the best first baseman to ever play the game in my eyes. You will be missed.

2005-09-30T00:14:00.000-07:00

It's official...I will no longer be watching Alias. Fuck you, Jennifer Garner. Thank you for ruining the show you selfish bitch!

I watched George Clooney on Primetime Live tonight. I love that man. He will be mine, oh yes, he will be mine.

2005-09-27T00:03:00.000-07:00

I know you guys are probably sick of me talking about baseball, but oh my God!! Tonight was the single greatest night of my life! Let me start by saying that for the entire season the Giants have looked absolutely hopeless and they looked as if they were going to be in last place at one point in the season because they were so terrible, but now they are 3 games behind the division leading Padres with 6 games left to play.

The last game that I went to the Giants lost in the bottom of the ninth to our rival team, the Dodgers and let me tell you that it was one of the most painful things I have ever experienced in my life. Tonight was a different story. Tonight the Giants were trailing 2-1 until the 9th inning and there were 2 outs. We were one out away from kissing the season good bye, but then Randy Winn came up to bat and he hit a fly ball to centerfield and center fielder Brian Giles jumped up, slammed into the wall, but caught the ball and then dropped it. The crowd went nuts until they realize that he had dropped it and Jon and I were so confused and happy that all we could do was scream and hug each other because the game was now tied 2-2 and JT Snow was coming up to bat with a runner on 3rd. I thought I was goint to have a heart attack and die because if there were 2 outs and the man that I love more then anything was coming up to bat and I didn't want him to screw this up. Oh and I forgot to mention that we were facing one of the greatest closers of all time, Treavor Hoffman, the Padres pride and joy! At this point, I am seriously praying for a miracle and then next thing I know JT has hit a single towards right field to put us in the lead.

Oh no folks it's not over! So then in the bottom of the 9th Armando Benitez comes in and he has blown about a billion saves for us in the few games he's actually played this year and he finally wins a game for us, but not before JT fell into the stands and cut open his neck and dented a camera. It was the most insane game I have ever seen in my life and my life is a little bit more complete because of it. It would be one thing if we were the Yankees and came back in the bottom of the 9th all the time, but we're hte Giants and we don't come back from anything. It was the greatest game I have ever seen. I never thought I would see such an amazing game. Plus, I got to see Barry play for maybe the last time ever and to see greatness in front of you is a pretty amazing thing.

Also, the highlight of the night, besides the Giants winning was when I was standing in line for food and a guy asked me if I had any weed because apparently every single person from Northern California has weed on them at all times.

So here's some pictures from the game:

Barry Bonds- The Great

Randy Winn- The man of the night. 4-4, RBI, and 2 runs

Barry kneeling because he's old

JT hit a double to score a run in the 5th. JT went 2-4 with 2 RBIs

Jon and Me, experiencing the greatest night of our lives

GIANTS WIN! ONLY 3 BACK!!!

2005-09-21T22:27:00.000-07:00

LOST...Oh....My....God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

P.S. Matthew Foxy = not so foxy w/ long hair

2005-09-21T00:38:00.000-07:00

I am so excited about "Lost" that I don't think I can sleep. Not to mention that I watched "Fever Pitch" and while the Jimmy Fallon and Drew Barrymore part sucked my balls, the baseball part of it got me so excited I've been jumping around for about 20 mintues now. That movie must have pissed the shit out of Red Sox fans. If it had been about the Giants, I would have been pissed if Jimmy Fallon was representing us, but I am insane.

I know most of you that read this don't give a shit about the Giants or baseball for that matter, but I am so excited about how the Giants have been playing lately that I just have to write about it. You should have known what you were getting into when you started reading a blog with the url address "I heart JT Snow!" The Giants are only out 5 and there's like 12 some odd games left and the Padres have been HORRIBLE lately. For example, the Colorado Rockies currently have a .413 winning percentage and they beat the 1st place Padres 20-1 tonight!!! I am going to the Giants vs. Padres game on Monday night in San Diego and I CANNOT WAIT!!!!!!! Not to mention, BARRY'S BACK!!!!!!!!!!!! I have seen him hit two home runs since he's been back and it is a good good good feeling!!!! BASEBALL IS THE GREATEST GAME EVER CREATED!! If you don't believe me, I challenge you to go to a game with me and not have a good time and not like baseball! Just ask my sister!

I want to go to Boston so badly and I want to go to a game at Fenway. I think the moment I walked into Fenway and saw the field I would cry. I would have fully formed tears streaming down my face. I might have a panic attack because I will be so overwhelmed with baseball goodness. I get butterflies in my stomach everytime I'm about to walk into SBC(where the Giants play). No matter where I am, when I see that field my stomach flips. *sigh* baseball...

Also, the craziest storm ever happened last night. I was at work and there was all this lightning and half the street lights went out so I got home and it was still going all crazy and thundering so I went to bed and like an hour later I woke up to the loudest thunder on earth!! I have never heard thunder that loud before in my entire life. It scared the living shit out of me!!! I had three pillows over my head and it was still SO LOUD!! The whole time I was so paranoid my roommate was going to come into my room and scare the shit out of me and I would just scream for days. Check out the photos! I advise watching the video to see it in action. It's just funny because it rained for one night and it was kind of hard rain, but it was like every day rain in the winter for Northern California and chaos erupted in Southern California of course. Traffic was MISERABLE and the streets were semi-flooded. There is nothing scarier then being a Northern Californian driving in Southern California in the rain! You CANNOT believe the way people drive in the rain down here. It is scary and you see your life flash before your eyes every two seconds.

Okay, I am ending this hyper and nonsense post!

2005-09-16T16:38:00.000-07:00

The on going saga of the Ex...

Wes and I have not had the easiest time with eachother over the past two years, to say the very least. There have been so many ups and downs and for the past 6 months or so I have just wanted to get off the damn rollercoaster. I actually hated him for the first time since 6th grade. Let's do a brief overview of mine and Wes's relationship.

6th grade: Wes and I meet. He's shy. I'm crazy.

7th grade: He's still shy. I'm still crazy.

8th grade: Young love starts to spark. Went to Orlando together. Held hands. Come back to California. Magic is gone.

9th grade: We're friends. He's ignored because I liked the senior guys.

10th grade: I have a small crush on him, but then I meet Shane.

11th grade: Still friends. He dates Teal. I date Joe. Teal cheats on him. Wes is angry and bitter. I start to like Wes.

Summer of 11th grade: Oh young love once again.

12th grade: I like Wes. He likes me. I am scared. Finally we make out. I freak out. I break up with him. I move.

Freshman Year of College: He writes. I write. We fight.

Sophomore Year of College. I miss him. I love him. We fight. We fight. We fight. My grandpa gets sick. My dad gets sick. Tell him I need him to be there for me. He makes me cry. I hate Wes.

So now we're back to the present. For the past 6 months I have honestly been so bitter towards, not just Wes, but men in general. I hated them. They all made me sick. I finally decided that there was nothing there for me with Wes so what's the point in talking to him and decided to never call him again. I have been good with that. But then I heard some news and then he moved down here to go to Northridge and then he messaged me and he's having a hard time and now I feel guilty. My guilt has been overwhelming me so much that I actually invited him to go see the Harry Potter movie with me in November. I wish I had no heart, but since I do, I am giving the boy one last chance. The boy just won't let me hate him, but I think this time will be different. My feelings have changed towards him and I think since that factor is gone, then the fighting factor will be eliminated as well. So here's to a fresh start with the ex, who hopefully will stop being referred to as the Ex and start being referred to as my friend.

2005-09-14T16:05:00.000-07:00

Google fucking rocks. I am so proud that my brother works there!

Do this. It is hilarious.

Go to google.com
Type in the world failure
and Click the "I'm feeling lucky button"
The results are amazing. I will support Google until the very end.

2005-09-14T00:50:00.000-07:00

"Lost" is officially the greatest show ever created. I am so scared now that I don't think I am going to be able to sleep and the show made me cry when the character I know for a fact lives, was supposedly dead. OH MY GOD! Not to mention, Matthew Fox(y) may have just surpassed Christian Bale on my hottness list!! September 21st cannot get here fast enough!!

2005-09-11T15:44:00.000-07:00

So Friday night kicked my ass both mentally and physically. I wore heels the entire night and my feet hate me to this day. Rachel and I drove up to San Luis Obispo Friday afternoon and on the way we saw Kenbo who had actually gone to the game with us two nights before! It was strange and the look on his face when we pulled up next to him was classic. So we got there and got ready and then the crazy night of drinking began.

That is Mikey G. He is 6'5. He was a gentleman and squatted since he is almost a foot and a half taller than me. In 7th grade, Mike and I dated. I was his first kiss. I love the kid, but sadly enough I don't think I had seen that kid since graduation!

Here is the high school reunion picture. We are the RDG gang. Collin, Sean, me, Rachel, Mike, and Kenny.

Here is part of the reason why I love California. It is beautiful.

The Beach.

Right before we got to Santa Barbara.

Mike and Jenna

Me, Jenna and Rachel. Jenna and I are the small ones.

The drinking bagan!

Roomies! Rach and me.

Sean and me. Giants fans unite. Sean has been my bud since 4th grade.

So the night was really fun, the morning was another story. I was hungover and Rachel was puking. I have never seen someone puke so much in my entire life! We had to pull over three times on the drive home. OH IT WAS HORRIBLE! Also, I have never seen a more disgusting floor after a party until I saw Jenna's. I wish I had taken a before and after picture and I think about 20 shot glasses got broken. Last night I went to bed at 1145 and I didn't wake up until 12 this afternoon. It was well worth it though. Great party, Jenna!

I put the pictures from the baseball game in the "Baseball Goodness" page. So if you want to go check them out feel free to do so!

2005-09-08T23:57:00.000-07:00

People! The boy thing is not very exciting at all. I don't even know his name. He was a Giants fan at the game last night and I had spotted him in the 2nd inning and so I kept staring at him(Anissa, you know what my staring is like) and we made eye contact a bunch. And of course he was a dirty rocker boy. I hate them! I drool over them every time!!! So him and his friend kept making their way over towards us and so then when the game got really exciting and the Giants came back we started talking and high fiving. So then his friend got kicked out for throwing a foul ball back onto the field so he came down and sat with Rachel and Kenny and me and we talked some more. That's it. He was just really really cute. It's just nice to know that I am no longer looking at every man and wanting him to die.

In other news, I got a job today. I start work on Monday. I'm working at another good ol tanning salon, but the lady seemed really cool and I got hired on the spot! I am definitely feeling better now that I have a job and I won't be having to call my parents for money all the time.

Tomorrow I'm heading off for San Luis Obispo so I'm sure I will have lots of pictures from the drunken rager when I get back. I'll post my baseball pics up then too.

2005-09-08T00:10:00.000-07:00

Tonight's Giants game ripped out my soul. It was a good game. I had a great time, but I have now lost my soul. It has been taken from me and stomped on right in front of my face.
OH

My

God!

I don't know if I can see another baseball game for a long time after that. Also, when a 50 year old women are yelling at you to go home it makes me wonder "Do you see what you look like right now? Do you realize how old you are? I am 20 and I am not acting like you, my God woman." So glad I am not a Dodgers fan. Horrible people.

I met a cute boy though. *Sigh*

P.S. Pictures will be posted tomorrow. Also, I have a job interview tomorrow!

2005-09-04T20:56:00.000-07:00

"I know. It's all wrong. By rights we shouldn't even be here. But we are. It's like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger, they were. And sometimes you didn't want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn't. They kept going. Because they were holding on to something...That there's some good in this world, Mr. Frodo... and it's worth fighting for."

Let me just state that I have been drinking tonight...maybe a lot and I, also, may have watched a little too much "Lord of the Rings" over the past day and a half, but honestly that quote gave me hope for the next three and a half years and for the world in general. This quote gives me hope that the American people can really understand that we're headed in the wrong direction and we can come together and work towards making America better. Watching all these people on the news is just tearing my soul apart. I cannot understand how all this happened in America. I cannot understand how it took them so long to get things moving and organized when they knew people were dying. It takes 5 hours to fly from California to New York, how did it take them 3 days just to START arriving in New Orleans and 6 days to actually get the operation moving? It's disgusting and fucked up and just to think if people hadn't elected some white trash bigot from Texas we could have saved a lot more lives. People say that life isn't all about making money, but apparently it is because if you're poor and something like this happens you're the last one out. It's all so fucked up and I hate Bush. I saw people giving him hugs on the news. I would have kicked him and asked why the fuck wasn't he there 4 days earlier? "I'm sorry if you were on vacation for the 300th time this year, Mr. President, but we need you down here." I just hope there isn't a terrorist attack anytime soon or we're fucked.

I don't know what it is lately, but I have had the extreme desire to drink a lot. I think it's because I am need of numbing the pain from realizing my life has not changed in the least the past two years. I'm still single. I still have no idea what the fuck I want to do in life. I'm finally happy, for the most part, so that is a change and a good one at that.

The being single thing really doesn't bother me what does bother me is I cannot completely cut Wes out of my life. I want to delete him out of my phonebook and I want to delete him from my Myspace, but I know if I did that it would somehow lead to us getting in a big fight about it, when that really isn't what we're fighting about in the first place. It's all so ridiculous and it would all be so much easier if we didn't have the same friends. I would never have to worry about seeing him again and that would make my visits home a whole lot more fun. Everytime I see him it just reminds me of what he did to me when he knew I needed him most and it just makes me want to knee him in the balls and kick the crap out of him. I really do hate him and that's just depressing because he used to be my best friend.

And this whole being back at school this is just depressing me. It all just seems so pointless. I just feel like such a failure. Blah. I just can't even talk about school right now.

All this news is just depressing me. I refuse to watch the news tomorrow because I know that is why I am so down in the dumps. When I actually started watching the news in hopes of hearing about John and not just reading it was when I started getting sad and crying 20 times a day so that is going to stop tomorrow.

I'm going to end this blog on a positive note because I don't like all this negative talk coming from me. I just want to say that I have the greatest family in the world and I am so thankful to have them. Jen, even though you don't understand my sarcasm 90% of the time and we fight a lot because of it, I love you to death and you are an amazing sister and I look up to you a lot. Jeff, you're the greatest brother anyone could ask for and I miss you like crazy and I wish it were like the days when I was in 7th grade and you were a senior and we hung out all the time. Jen M, I can't wait for you to become my sister in a few months, you're one of the best people I know and sometimes I'm convinced you know me better then my best friend since 6th grade. Mom and Dad, even though you guys don't read this, I love you two more than anything and you've supported me in ways I could have never imagined. I am who I am today because of you guys and I cannot thank you enough.

2005-09-02T14:49:00.000-07:00

Right now I just want to drop out of school and drive to New Orleans and do whatever I can to help. How is that America? It looks like a third world country and now I just heard that one of the buses taking people out of the city has flipped over. What more do those poor people have to go through? This is horrible. Things like this should not be happening in America. You can't control the weather, but you sure as hell can control the way your government reacts to a crisis.

2005-09-01T16:39:00.000-07:00

I HATE CNN, but since I don't get the BBC channel at my house and there's no way in hell I will watch Fox News, I have to watch it. Today I found out that my friend that lives in New Orleans lost his house, but is okay so I turned on the news to see what was going on his city and Anderson Cooper was on. One of the reasons I hate CNN so much is because they have the worst and most soulless reporters on the planet, but this is not the case with Anderson Cooper. I have always respected Anderson, but today I discovered a new found respect for that man. This couple had lost their baby and during the show they found it and Anderson was interviewing them and he just cried along with them. How many reporters, let alone men, have you seen do something like that? Then there was this horrid Senator from Lousiana that he interviewed and she started thanking all the other politicians for their efforts and I have never seen such anger and passion from a reporter before and Anderson basically told the woman that she is full of shit.

I remember after September 11th when the Daily Show came back on for the first time and Jon Stewart gave the most moving and heartfelt speech I've ever seen and Anderson's show reminded me of that and all I could do was cry. Anderson Cooper will forever rock in my book.

Anyway, the past two days I have been freaking out because John lives in New Orleans and he sent out this message on Myspace saying that he wasn't going to evacuate his house because it is brick and it's up in the hills where the city has never flooded before. So no one had heard from him for the past two days and everyone was leaving him comments asking him if he is okay and what not. So my parents live across the street from his grandparents so I sent my mom over since I'm not in Redding to go see if they've heard from them and they had just heard that they were all okay today, but it is the most insane story ever!

So their house started flooding and it got up to about four feet and they decided that they had to get out of the house so they went in sat in the bed of John's truck and the water kept rising and rising and rising to the point where it was finally up to the truck's door handle. Finally a boat when by and it rescued them and when it left the house it went over the fence in the yard, that's how high the water was. So anyway the boat dropped them off somewhere and I think at that point they got a ride with this guy in a truck and they rode with him and then the truck ran out of gas so they had to get out and walk for like 15 or so miles and sometimes the land was dry and well sometimes it was flooded. Then they got another lift from this guy in a truck who took them to John's roommate's house. So now thank God they are safe and sound, but my God hearing that story reminded me of the movie "The Day After Tomorrow" which ,by the way, is the worst movie ever made. I feel so much better that my friend is okay, but it's horrible that he lost his house. It's so tragic watching the news and I beg of you, if you can afford it donate some money to the Red Cross because there are people out there that have lost their homes entirely and some have lost family members and it's the least you can do to send money their way to make their lives a little easier.

2005-08-30T00:49:00.000-07:00

I have class in 8 and a half hours.

I bought the new Death Cab for Cutie. It is very very very good. It is calming.

Jeff is a butthead.

Hey Jefe, since you weren't there for my drunk dial, did you at least enjoy my message? I'll post a pic of your scarf on here. I was so jealous I went out and bought similar yarn for myself. You and Jen get matching ones, but not until Christmas!!! Well, I say Christmas, but I doubt that will be the case because I get so excited about things that I can't wait!

I started my blanket today. I'm really nervous that I'm doing the pattern wrong, but hey if it sucks I just won't give it to Juliette and I'll keep it for myself!

Okay I am forcing myself to at least to get into bed and pretend to sleep. Death Cab with ease my mind! YAY!

2005-08-29T01:37:00.000-07:00

Today I drove up to Long Beach to pick up my friend, Juliette, and head on over to the wonderful world that I like to call the California State University Long Beach campus to pick up our books. Why are we picking up our books? BECAUSE SCHOOL STARTS ON MONDAY!!!! Where the hell did my summer go? The most exciting thing I did was go to San Francisco and that's practically my home away from home.

So this morning Juliette and I made our way up to the University bookstore in the ungodly heat and when I got my box of books I found out for my 5 classes I have 11 books!!!!! Today I discovered I hate college and I hate my major, as well as, minor. I think it's a good thing that I'm taking yoga this semester. I'm only taking Tuesday/Thursday classes and so this means to cram all 5 of my classes into those two days on Tuesdays I must go to school from 9:30 AM to 9:15 PM and from 9:30AM to 3:15PM I have absolutely no breaks. So yoga will be much needed on Wednesday afternoons.

This semester is going to be pretty intense to say the least. I have all upper division classes and they are all counting towards either my major or minor so that means if I ever want to make it in the grad school I need to get good grades. College is starting to get a little more serious now that I'm heading into my third year, but I think after last semester I can handle almost anything. Last semester I found out my grandpa has liver cancer and a few weeks later I found out my dad had to get heart surgery and after all the horrible mania and panic with my dad, I was still able to get all B's. I felt like I was going to die trying to catch up after all the school I missed having to drive home to be with the family and finals almost made me want to jump off a cliff, but hey, I pulled it off and I don't think things can get much worse then last semester so I am being really positive about this semester. Not to mention I think summer school gave me a new found motivation for school. I finally know what I want to major in and even though I have no idea what I'm going to do with it, I don't care for once.

So all I have to say to this semster is...BRING IT ON!!

2005-08-25T16:40:00.000-07:00

I finally filled up my memory card on my camera so I posted all the pictures from this summer on my online photo album. So go check them out!

Photo Album

2005-08-22T17:16:00.000-07:00

Today I went shopping with my dear friend, Juliette. My whole goal was to get some more jeans and I failed miserably at acheiving my goal. I have about 20 or more purses and today I bought another one and ended up getting another one free. I did get some pants for my yoga class so that was good, but all that shopping has made me want to go to the gym and that is what I am doing in about 40 minutes. So anyway here are some pictures of my purchases. They are some good back to school items.

Here are my yoga pants. They will be comfy and I will be able to move in them. I am so excited for that class to start on Wednesday!

Here is the purse I bought at the Paul Frank store. I was lusting over it last week when I was there, but ended up buying some sunglasses so when I went back today I knew I had to buy it.

Here is the other cool bag that I got for free when I bought the purse! It's super cute and I'll use it as a knitting bag. I'm hoping to attend a Stitch n Bitch meeting soon!

2005-08-16T16:40:00.000-07:00

I know, I know, I know! I do have many excuses for why I haven't posted in forever and all of them involve my insanely busy life. I only am able to post now because I have an hour break before I have to go to the store and then movie night begins! I made a promise to be back soon and so I am keeping that promise and posting a blog about the wonderful weekend I had.

Part of the reason my life has been insane because my roommate finally moved in so I was helping her unpack as well as showing her around town. When she moved in she brought her dog with her. Lucy is a Boston Terrier and is amazing. She likes to cuddle and is super cute. At first I was a little apprehensive about having a dog because they require so much attention, but Lucy is great and she is okay to leave alone in the house by herself.

Last night Rachel and I went to In & Out and Lucy decided she wanted some for herself.

So after all the mania of moving in Rachel, I had to drive 8 1/2 hours on the 5 all the back to Redding so I could get my car worked on and then go to San Francisco to look at wedding dresses with my brother's fiance. The one thing I love about going home, besides driving my dad's car, is the animals. I miss having 3 cats and a dog around all the time. My favorite kitty is Bobo. He is so cute and loves to be petted and he has the stinkiest breath in the world, but he is the greatest.

So here is Bobo contemplating his simple life in the Redding heat. I had no idea is was possible for a kitty to sit like that all on their own.

On Friday my mom, my sister, and I caravaned down to San Francisco and did some shopping before the rest of the ladies met up with us.

This is Nicole(Jen's maid of honor) and Patty(Jen's mom) right before we headed off to Union Square to begin Bridefest 2K5!

This is all of us acting like tourists in Union Square. Nicole, Jen, Patty, me, and Cathy, my mom.

So Jen found the most amazing dress and she decided to celebrate with some wine. Double fisting it, very classy!

It was an amazing weekend and I forgot how much I loved San Francisco because last time I was there it was under the not-so-happy circumstances of my dad having to get heart surgery. I decided that once I graduate I will move to San Francisco. I was thinking about moving to the East coast for a year, but I don't see that happening. I love California too much and moving to Boston would make me that much farther from the Giants, oh, and my family(haha, kidding).

So anyway, thanks for the wonderful weekend Jen, Patty, Nicole, Mom, and Jen.

2005-08-04T23:01:00.000-07:00

Today driving to LA to meet up with my sister to go to Stitch n Bitch I saw a bumper sticker on a car that said "My boss is a Jewish carpenter." I found myself thinking, "Wow, I wish my boss was a Jewish carpenter so that today I could have avoided spending 3 hours trying to assemble a bookcase that turned out looking like shit! I would have made his ass come over and put the damn thing together!"

Starting yesterday I should have known that this bookcase and I were doomed. I made my way over to Target to get a bookcase and it turned out to be this huge adventure. Why you ask? Because I am 5'1 and the box that the bookcase comes in weighs about 200 pounds! Trying to put the box into my basket by myself was hard enough. I'm so freaking short and the box was so heavy that every time I tried to slide the thing into the basket, it just kept rolling away from me! So after like oh ya know, 5 tries!, this lady held the basket for me. SO after I get the rest of my stuff and go through the check out line I'm thinking about how it is going to be damn near impossible for me to get this huge box out of the basket and into my car. Not to mention, I drive a Volkswagen Jetta so I have to fold down the back seats so the box can fit and one would think this would be an easy task, but not for me! So it's 85 degrees and my car is like 100 degrees inside because it's blue and it's been sitting in the sun, so I'm sweating balls as I'm trying to yank the seats down! After I finally get that accomplished I have to pick this 200 pound box up out of the basket that is practically taller then me and the parking lot is on a slant so I'm trying to make it so the basket doesn't go flying away from me and crash into another car! Is it surprising to find out that I almost fell on my ass twice? What is even more frustrating is that there was this guy in a mini-van watching me the entire time! So when I got home I left it in my car because my friends were coming over later that night so I was going to make them deal with it. I had enough with the damn box!

So today I woke up bright and early at 11:00 AM to assemble this damn bookcase. I figured it would take me an hour, try 3!! I now have two blisters on my hand and my thumb feels like I've been playing Nintendo for 15 hours straight! Both the upper and lower part of my arms have pulled muscles and I think I am going to smell like wood for the rest of my life. You would think after three hours of screwing in things and nailing shit into the back of this bookcase it would be a masterpiece, but NO! It is probably the ugliest and most disasterous thing I have ever assembled before in my life!

Do you see how that front piece dangles from the top? Isn't that nice? There is this nice gap right in your face!! After half an hour of trying to screw in the screws, two blisters, and strained muscles I decided to try and yell "motherfucker" at it to see if that would make them screw in, but when that didn't work so I decided to just let it dangle. People like dangly things, don't they?

Do you see the nail protruding from the back of that thing? How did that happen? Well, it's kind of lopsided and I'm not very good at making sure things are evenly placed on surfaces so now I have nails sticking out the side of my bookcase. Oh! I can't forget the fact that I put the backing on backwards!!! Yes, I am a third year in college!!!

So anyway, that is my story of why I will never be a Jewish carpenter. Everytime I look over and see that ugly bookcase my thumb starts to ache.

Also, thanks for all the suggestions for my scarf! I liked a lot of them and I will be keeping them in mind for the scarfs I make for myself!! I watched "Harry Potter" and became inspired to make Andy's scarf a Harry Potter scarf. Here's what it looks like so far!!

Here is the picture of the fruit pizza I made for Karman's birthday party! I was so proud that I made it by myself that I took a picture! It's super simple to make, but it tastes great. Let me know if you want the recipe!

P.S. Today was my half-birthday! 6 more months until I'm 21 and a drunkard! I can't wait!

2005-08-01T23:57:00.000-07:00

I have a knitting dilemma! I'm knitting a scarf for my friend, Andy, and he wants it to be black and pink. So here's the deal, so far I've started and I'm making the black part longer than the pink, but I don't know what to do now that I've gotten past the first pink stripe.

Should I:

1) keep making a bunch of pink stripes

or

2) make it so there are only two pink stripes at the ends of the scarf

Here's a picture so you'll be able to get a better idea of what I am talking about!

Please, help! My visual spatial abilities are limited and it doesn't help that I don't have much of a fashion sense! I don't know. The more I look at it, the more I want to take out the whole thing. I think there is too much black on the end. Argh! HELP!

2005-07-29T15:27:00.000-07:00

Summer school is finally over and after three weeks of pure insanity I was finally able to clean my apartment. I feel so much better. I highly recommend taking a three week summer school class because those three weeks will be insane, but at least by the time you feel like you're going to die it's half way over! I only recommend that to people who can live for three weeks with the fact that the only time you will have to clean up your apartment are the weekends and well since my weekends have been insane lately, I had to live with the fact that my apartment was going to be a disaster until summer school was over. I feel a lot more sane that my apartment is clean as well. So I will now provide you with the before and after results:

Before:

After:

I think my mom would be so proud of me!!

It's strange, lately I've been getting a real sense of how much I have grown up in the past two years and it's things like cleaning my apartment that make it allt he more clear. Before I wouldn't clean my room or anything, mostly out of spite for my mother, but also because I just didn't care. Now I realize that living in a pig stye is disgusting and your guests really don't want to be coming over to visit one either.

When I was younger all I wanted to do was grow up and now that I'm here I'm glad I did. It's a good feeling. I think, also, in the past few weeks I have realized that even though I might not have any idea what I want to do in life, it's okay. My entire life I have had a plan. I felt like if I had no idea what direction I was going in I was going to fail, but now I know that's not true. I think I've finally gotten a sense of who I am and that I am going to do just fine in whatever I do. I've also noticed that since giving up on trying to find the answers to everything I'm a lot happier. Life is great right now and even though it may all come crashing down one day, at least I know what it felt like to be truly happy at some point in my life.

2005-07-28T16:39:00.000-07:00

I've added a ton of pictures, as well as, some other stuff so feel free to check it out and let me know what you think! It's over on the sidebar under different categories! Enjoy!